AcidRAEn
Bluelighter
Hello, my name is Brandy. I joined this sight originally in 2011 but never really used it. I live in a very small town in Virginia and am a single-mother to an amazing 15 month old boy who was born on Guy Fawkes Day! I have been sober a little over two years now and quit smoking cigarettes within the past 6 months. I'm 25 years old and at this weird stage where I'm trying to figure out who I am as a person, as a mother, and as an adult. I spent so much of my time since turning 18 partying, doing drugs and living a sort of nomadic lifestyle that I'm now left trying to figure out who I am as a sober individual. Figuring out who my real friends are and who I just got fucked up with. I've played "mother/therapist" to many of my friends before I became a full-blown junky and have resumed that role since getting clean. I enjoy helping others, but I am not as self-sacrificing as I used to be because ultimately, what comes first now is my son. Becoming a mother has been strange, I had never planned on having children and had been told it would be very difficult for me to conceive. I was raised by my father so I am doing a lot of on-the-job learning so to speak. I'm also trying to consolidate my personality and beliefs with what I think a mother should be. It's not easy, but I am enjoying it every step of the way. I re-visited this website to gather some information but am also looking forward to frequenting the sober living boards. Most of the friends I have have either never struggled with addiction and they judge, or if they have struggled with addiction they are still struggling and have a hard time seeing the world outside of themselves...so it will be nice to talk to others who are possibly in the same position as I.
