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MadMike17

MadMike17

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Hi all! I've been around bluelight for almost 10 years now but never made an account. I've always used BL as a source of Info when I needed it.
I'm 24 and an opiate and Benzo addict of 11 years. I've lived in Pennsylvania all my life and my counties stats on Heroin use and ODs are almost tied with Philly, Its an epademic around here. I'm currently just starting suboxone and trying to get clean. My son is now 3.5 years old and I'm to the point I've already spend almost 5 years of my life incarcerated because of drugs and don't wanna fuck up again. I currently have a decent job that pays well and am tired of blowing all my cash on drugs, time to put that bad craziness behind me. I've done my fare share of narcotics and am here to give the best of advice I can to all the others here on BL... See Ya'll in the forums!
 
Welcome, i am also from PA central area though. Sorry to hear of your troubles in the past but at least its behind you. As a recent father I can vouch it does help to make you think twice about risk taking. Good luck and glad to have someone with your attitude of trying to help others.
 
Thanks sunbane! This is my first real attempt at getting clean besides being stuck in the PA DOC.. Lol I'm from Hockeyville if ya know what I mean lol
 
Good work on cleaning yourself up Mike. I have been battling opiate addiction on and off for 14 years. Suboxone works but you gotta eventually just be tired for a few weeks (withdraw). It usually takes me about a month to feel back to normal after taking any decent amount of opiates. Nowadays when I use, I take microdoses. Just enough to give me clear thought process and energy. I have to get all the opiate addicted people and sources out of my life when Im clean. If I have people using around me, I'm easily convinced to use. I have worn out my body from physical labor. I'm in pain all the time. Pain is life. I learn to embrace the pain, do stretching or exercise, do something to correct the source of the pain. The more I listen to my body and exercise (also get plenty of sunlight, If needed go to a tan booth once a week) the more my body doesnt want drugs and feels good all by itself. Exercise, good food and sex are my favorite drugs at this point. But opiates, wax, mdma and lsd are a close second, third, fourth and fifth, respectively
 
Thank You Mane! And ya I'm recently on subs legally and I do feel a little better, physically and mentally. And I know what you mean by micro doses, I used to do the same thing usually when I was low on cash or something. That was a super hard thing to do though.... But I'm a fairly stagnant person and need to get out more like you said. I work night shift at a hotel now and it's slow and when I get home I don't do much, than sleep. Repeat. Maybe I'll try hitting the Recreation Center for our hotel lol
 
Hey Mike! We've already run across eachother several times on the forum..really glad to have you join the community.

As far as your background goes, I hear you loud and clear. I also have a son nearly the same age. If nothing else, our kids deserve a better life/future than having their parents consumed with active addiction. No good for ANYONE involved.

I'm glad to hear you are trying to clean your act up. Props. You most certainly don't want to get locked up anymore, missing your child growing up, having them see you in there, etc etc etc.

Best of luck to you, man..see you around BL.
 
Thanks Capt'n!
Chris thanks also! Nice to see someone with a son about the same age as mine. It's HARD to be an addict and take care of a child, especially when ur not with the mom anymore and it's hell in that field... She's a total psychopath now, re-married and already has another kid with the dude she left me for. And it's only been like a year since we split. Lol
I totally agree this move to my sobriety is because I want a good life for my son, for myself also but my son means the world to me! And yes, I met my sons mom and had B-Rad just after I was released from prison... And it was hard without having a son, I can't imagine being incarcerated again and having my son on the outside and not being able to call or see him when I want... Those thoughts scare the hell out of me!!
 
Just came across this older thread of mine. Just an update: I have 41 days FAIRLY clean and on subs. I've done some zannies, addys and the other day shot 2 tiny bags that were pretty much junk. idk why I did, had about 24hrs of subs out of me and was severely pissed off... ya.. But its the longest I've been off dope for awhile!
And I just watched the "Pittsburgh Smack" episode of Drugs Inc and seen my town Johnstown was a fairly large part of the episode. lol 8)
 
Hi MadMike, sounds like you got grip, 41 days is great. I have 7 today. Just read your thread, I live right outside philly, a couple miles at most. This road is tough keep posting
 
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