DaysNDaze
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Aug 2, 2016
- Messages
- 60
Hi there,
I just recently registered to this site although I've been a guest reading through the forums for years.
My DOC is opiates, particularly anything with oxycodone in it. I'm a 25 year old woman now and I have only quit successfully once when I was 22 for about 9 months. God I wish I could get back to that person. I'm so deep in my addiction now I don't know if I'll ever get out of this hole.
I'll save you all the details for a thread in the dark side forums because seriously, I'm an empathic person who has been holding my feelings inside since as long as I can remember and also burdening myself with the problems of others for as long as I can remember. I remember my father saying to me not too long ago "I remember you being less than a year old, caring about the well being of others."
What hurts me the most is I could have done so much more with my life. Some would say I already have it all, a pretty reputable position for a sanitation company, the means to pay my way to get whatever I need in life. Unfortunately I always seem to screw it up with my addiction.
Anyways, I'm hoping to use this site as a therapeutic thing to get some of these festering emotions out. I want to get off the opiates for good, and hoping to get some support here also. Some of the user's stories on here have truly inspired me and I am so happy for all of you that have conquered this nasty demon. Many props to you.
I'm using the mobile version for now because my laptop has a cracked screen and I have to hook it up to my TV, it's more of a hassle than it's worth at the moment, but I'll try to get my profile and avatar going soon.
Thanks for listening and looking forward to meeting all of you.
I just recently registered to this site although I've been a guest reading through the forums for years.
My DOC is opiates, particularly anything with oxycodone in it. I'm a 25 year old woman now and I have only quit successfully once when I was 22 for about 9 months. God I wish I could get back to that person. I'm so deep in my addiction now I don't know if I'll ever get out of this hole.
I'll save you all the details for a thread in the dark side forums because seriously, I'm an empathic person who has been holding my feelings inside since as long as I can remember and also burdening myself with the problems of others for as long as I can remember. I remember my father saying to me not too long ago "I remember you being less than a year old, caring about the well being of others."
What hurts me the most is I could have done so much more with my life. Some would say I already have it all, a pretty reputable position for a sanitation company, the means to pay my way to get whatever I need in life. Unfortunately I always seem to screw it up with my addiction.
Anyways, I'm hoping to use this site as a therapeutic thing to get some of these festering emotions out. I want to get off the opiates for good, and hoping to get some support here also. Some of the user's stories on here have truly inspired me and I am so happy for all of you that have conquered this nasty demon. Many props to you.
I'm using the mobile version for now because my laptop has a cracked screen and I have to hook it up to my TV, it's more of a hassle than it's worth at the moment, but I'll try to get my profile and avatar going soon.
Thanks for listening and looking forward to meeting all of you.