Me too! 3 lower back jobs, all failed. they got me on 10 mgs methadone for long time now.
app. 18 yrs. total addiction. once I got fed up and wanted to stop. right! what I went thru.! HS!
my biggest fear is not having meds. I cannot begin to tell you what I've been through, who's stealing it, even my own son.
I now have to hide my meds or I will be sol. Fing hospitals don't care, nor do Fing Dr's who do pain clinics.
They "test" me and because I smoke MJ they boot me out of care!!
Then once they gave me the damm patches with fentynal. I had a over dose one nite!
and the hospital was bitching me out because of it!! More BS!! I cannot belive the attitude.
Now I get my meds from the VA and they leave me alone!! they know I'm a screwed up vet
they made me what I am now. they know I'm a toker, after some 40 yrs of toking I really don't care who knows now a days.
It helps!! that's all I know. my only wosh is that the MJ would stop the pain too. then I could stop all the meds.
Oxycontin didn't work to well for me. and morphine didn't either. I had a pharmacy VA guy give me crap becaouse it didn't work.
It was like he called the shots, after I was released from jail, for dropping him, he left me alone!!
I get sick and tired of this and just want to be off this shit!