Hi, I simply wanted to say hello here. I'm interested in the serious use vs. the recreational use of an hallucinogen/entheogens (Psychedelic Psychotherapy) for healing/consciousness-expanding/spiritual work. I'm 52 and never tried any of these "medicines" before. I take cymbalta and mirtazapine and buspar for depression. I feel that some of my depression is trauma based and feel like these anti-depressants leave me disconnected and limit my ability to dig deeper in my inner world to "do the work" of recovery. My intention is to work with a guide and integrate my discoveries during my journeywork with a therapist. It was suggested to me that my first experience would likely be with MDMA. However, from what I've read it is a very body draining experience. So I've been incorporating exercise and weight training to build my body. I also understand MDMA can add to serotonin loss, something I don't really need because of my depression. I've read posts that describe, rather extensively, a long, perhaps expensive list of pre and post supplements to ingest before and after the experience. I guess if I'm really serious about getting the best possible experience I should really try some of the supplement suggestions. I'm curious though if anyone might have another suggestion as to the type of entheogen I might consider that would allow me to do the work without the side-effects. I'm open to any experienced commentary in addition to any links you might add to guide me for I will read them in earnest.
Finally, I like to submit this from my search written by someone who has assisted individuals doing their work. ""to keep them safe, to guide them towards liberation, the end of automatic habit patterns, kneejerk reactions, towards heartfelt responses, love, acceptance and forgiveness. After one session with MDMA, people were able to sustain insights gained, without further assistance from the drug. Psychotherapy proceeded faster and deeper than before: the debilitating effects of shame have been annulled, heavily defended hearts opened, and stayed open, and people acquired the ability to enjoy the sacrament of every living moment without distraction by past regrets or future worries. No small gains!"
That sounds like a wonderful gift to experience. Thanks for your time.
Finally, I like to submit this from my search written by someone who has assisted individuals doing their work. ""to keep them safe, to guide them towards liberation, the end of automatic habit patterns, kneejerk reactions, towards heartfelt responses, love, acceptance and forgiveness. After one session with MDMA, people were able to sustain insights gained, without further assistance from the drug. Psychotherapy proceeded faster and deeper than before: the debilitating effects of shame have been annulled, heavily defended hearts opened, and stayed open, and people acquired the ability to enjoy the sacrament of every living moment without distraction by past regrets or future worries. No small gains!"
That sounds like a wonderful gift to experience. Thanks for your time.

