S'wayne
Greenlighter
Hey there folks, my name is Mike and I've been a former bluelight member with a few hundred posts. I then took a few year hiatus, occasionally searching and reading some things here and there, not to say my lifestyle changed but that I didn't have freedom of internet access for quite awhile. I actually don't know if my old user profile still exists or is accessible, so I just started this new one, figured I would start fresh, and figured I might as well introduce myself.
I figure I've probably been missing out on quite a bit here these past few years. IMHO I think forums and message boards can really be a black hole as far as how much time you can end up pouring into them, some of which is purely a wasteful use of good time....However there is something special about this place, being able to talk to a huge group of people all at once that are somewhat like-minded in the way that you would be hard-pressed to find a couple of folks out of a hundred like bluelighters in the real world, at least the world I seem to live in.
I also like the way this place is cool with the vibes and the tolerance, as well as the many areas of discussion other than drugs. Here I feel no reason to fear saying that I am a believer in the Catholic faith and have high moral ideals, while at the same time I am traversing through life recognizing how difficult things can be, and what a tall order it is to even attempt to put your heart into living a pristine life (let alone coming anywhere near there in actual practice!). At the same time I'm looking ahead and realizing how difficult it will be to live truly humbly and truly non judgmentally, and the whole love your enemy thing, I have yet to even find someone I know personally that I have hatred towards. But if I had to imagine "not hating" my hypothetical little brother's kidnapper/rapist/murderer, that would be another tall order.
In essence, as crazy as this may sound, I am someone who feels a strong calling towards living "the right way" (not possible solo but true perseverance is what counts), while at the same time I am also deeply embedded in the ways of this "material world", which includes drugs and states of mind, and my selfish concerns for my own well-being, pleasures, entertainment and creature comforts.
Anyways that's my life story summed up in a philosophical sort of way, rather than mundane details of the past, which isn't all that exciting. This reveals more about who I really am as a person.
Now for fun stuff, I really love to learn, this is a truly fascinating universe, amazing in many ways. My personality and terrible curiosity led me to an interest in drugs at a very early age, then a use and experimentation stage that lasted from my late teens to this very day (roughly over a decade). I don't think I will ever cease to be fascinated by how drugs work and the sometimes astonishing effects they produce, though I intend as I'm getting a little older and planning for the future, to be very careful and very judicious when it comes to any future use of psychoactives, especially if they are illegal. I have a big fear of working on building up my life to have everything destroyed by some stupid mistake. Besides an interest in drugs, I also love all things good, good music, good learning of cool shit, good laughs, etc... That's about it for my introduction, hope it wasn't too deep or weird.
Glad to be back,
Mike
I figure I've probably been missing out on quite a bit here these past few years. IMHO I think forums and message boards can really be a black hole as far as how much time you can end up pouring into them, some of which is purely a wasteful use of good time....However there is something special about this place, being able to talk to a huge group of people all at once that are somewhat like-minded in the way that you would be hard-pressed to find a couple of folks out of a hundred like bluelighters in the real world, at least the world I seem to live in.
I also like the way this place is cool with the vibes and the tolerance, as well as the many areas of discussion other than drugs. Here I feel no reason to fear saying that I am a believer in the Catholic faith and have high moral ideals, while at the same time I am traversing through life recognizing how difficult things can be, and what a tall order it is to even attempt to put your heart into living a pristine life (let alone coming anywhere near there in actual practice!). At the same time I'm looking ahead and realizing how difficult it will be to live truly humbly and truly non judgmentally, and the whole love your enemy thing, I have yet to even find someone I know personally that I have hatred towards. But if I had to imagine "not hating" my hypothetical little brother's kidnapper/rapist/murderer, that would be another tall order.
In essence, as crazy as this may sound, I am someone who feels a strong calling towards living "the right way" (not possible solo but true perseverance is what counts), while at the same time I am also deeply embedded in the ways of this "material world", which includes drugs and states of mind, and my selfish concerns for my own well-being, pleasures, entertainment and creature comforts.
Anyways that's my life story summed up in a philosophical sort of way, rather than mundane details of the past, which isn't all that exciting. This reveals more about who I really am as a person.
Now for fun stuff, I really love to learn, this is a truly fascinating universe, amazing in many ways. My personality and terrible curiosity led me to an interest in drugs at a very early age, then a use and experimentation stage that lasted from my late teens to this very day (roughly over a decade). I don't think I will ever cease to be fascinated by how drugs work and the sometimes astonishing effects they produce, though I intend as I'm getting a little older and planning for the future, to be very careful and very judicious when it comes to any future use of psychoactives, especially if they are illegal. I have a big fear of working on building up my life to have everything destroyed by some stupid mistake. Besides an interest in drugs, I also love all things good, good music, good learning of cool shit, good laughs, etc... That's about it for my introduction, hope it wasn't too deep or weird.
Glad to be back,
Mike
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