Catiscool16
Greenlighter
Hello bluelight community! I'm a 28 year old female from the eastern shore. I joined this site because I often find myself looking on here for answers or wanting to share my personal experience and maybe help someone. I figure I been an addict for over 6 years and I might as well use my personal experiences and turn it into something good if it helps someone else. My poison of choice has always been H and or what I call a Baltimore speedball (cocaine and scramble) that was my favorate. A friend of mine ... Actually many friends of mine passed away from the Baltimore lifestyle which was my daily routine. I knew I had to stop when one particularly close friend of mine passed away. So now I been (suboxin) clean for a year and before that I was on methadone for a year. I only started methadone because the Subutex wasn't working after they started using fentanyl in the scramble pills. Even when I wanted to quit permanently I would go into pw days after using. So methadone was the only solution. I didn't like how sleepy I felt so I switched to suboxin after about 5 days. I will say wile on methadone I had no craving and stayed clean the entire time so it helped with that bit. Anyways I'm still struggling with the depression and sometimes I feel as though I switched from one drug to another and am not the clean I want to be. I have plenty of questions but I'll post them in the appropriate place as I hope I've done here but I'm not sure lol. I'm hoping this is the introduction section. I'm very excited to get to talk to other people I think it will help with the depression. So thank you for reading please let me know if I say anything I shouldn't have I mean no disrespect. Thanks again!
