listening to a song i listened to while on my first ever dmt in which i "broke through" wow. whenever i hear this song it just reminds me of the trip and i try and understand that trip but i never will. and I'll likely never repeat it in my life. so its now just a vague memory of this moment where i completely went somewhere out of this world to a place as unreal as it was real. i may never take dmt again im my life. i could if i really wanted to but im so satisfied with that one time. i got all i needed from that drug. i offered all it could. i consider that a real merit in a drug. when you can take it once and not want to take it again. mdmda,mda,ketamine,methylone. i love them all and love doing them but they are inherently empty. they place you and everything around you on a false pedestal of empathy and love. but after you take them. you want to do them again. you want to re-create the state you where in. and isn't that escapism?. escapism from what? a general dissatisfaction with your life, yourself, your own personality or actions?. or the personalities and actions of others perhaps. maybe its escapism into a world of drug induced tolerance. and that is why its so bliss and nirvana. anyway, this 2c-e is very much like lsd i guess. the visuals are very intense and i have only ever had an acid trip comparable to this once. the body load is similar to an acid one. i fell an oily saturated chemical feel. which is like the one i get on lsd. i don't feel any sickness or problems with my body. i feel quite normal in that regard.
anyway the song was the isle of summer by agalloch
