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Hello! can someone please help me??

Navaam

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I am having a bit of an anxiety attack at the moment. I scoured the interwebs for several hours trying to find answers...and was glad to have found this group! I'm sorry this isn't really any kind of introduction, but I came here looking for advice and had NO idea which forum to go to. Should I talk to a mod or just go ahead and post here?
 
Hey dude,
Don't worry about it, I'm sure a mod will soon move the thread to the right subforum, although I think it'd be perfectly fine to post your problem here dude, after all a distressed "Greetings I need help" introduction is still an introduction, so technically you're at the right spot. %)
What's the reason for you anxiety my man? Maybe I can help, if it's drug-related; I've consumed stuupid amounts of 'em and still as healthy as a horse (aside from some nostril related issues due to an old pale girlfriend of mine)
First off all, chill out. Anxiety only exists between your ears, and the more you focus on it the worse it gets..
:)
 
Oh gosh! I thought I'd never get a response! Yeah, I'm sure I've not helped it by refusing to stop thinking! Hell, have been through every plausible forum looking for a relation to what I'm dealing with. Anyway...it's actually really stupid, but for some reason I'm freaking out anyway! In a nutshell, I've not slept for going on 50 hours- Adderall binge. It's the first time I've purposely used my Rx to stay awake and motivated. But now, I'm starting to wig-out from sleep deprivation. I still have a shit-ton of things to do and I want to dose up again so I can keep going and hopefully finish my crap by tonight then crash. (I've crashed from my last dose taken last night, and am unmotivated to move...) so my question: Can I? How dangerous would it be? On the flip-side: If I fall asleep now, I'd be up all night again, and would have to medicate to make it thru the day!
 
How are you feeling? Both physically and mentally, how do you feel? While my experience in staying up for extended periods of time was due to probably the same pale girl mentioned above, I found that if I have started to feel anxious, it's best to grab myself a sandwich and a nap. It tends to get worse (the anxiety) the longer you are up. Just my experience talking here, I do not know the dangers of Adderall.
 
Before reading this, please realise that I'm not a medical professional, and my knowledge about stimulant-binges is mostly based on my own experience and anacdotical evidence from other, fellow stimulant (ab)users.
As an experienced amphetamine abuser, I can tell you with confidence, that unless you have a heart condition or something that'd make you super-prone to cardiac arrest, you should be able to redose and just keep on going until tonight.. In terms of binging associated risks, I've always considered amphetamines quite "forgiveable"; don't get me wrong, your comedown will be worse the longer your binge lasted, but 50 hours is not an exceptionally long binge.. I mean if I were a doctor I'd probably tell you you're destroying your body and frying your brain out, but honestly, I've done a loott of 75+ hours binges, it gets real trippy around the 50 hours mark, but as long as you keep yourself well fed and make sure to lay off the stimulants for a couple weeks after this binge, or at least go way easier on it, I honestly don't believe you're doing that much damage to yourself..
Also the amps I binged on were street amphetamines, yours is pharmacutical grade, and more dextro- than levoamphetamines, which makes it less stressful on your heart and veins.. So yeah, if I managed to binge on that shit and still live to talk about it, you will definitely be fine! :)

TL;DR: If you feel like your body can handle it (i.e. if your heart is not beating 180 BPM already), you can easily redose and postpone your crash until tonight.

P.S. Now that I'm reviewing my post, I realised it might seem like I'm actually promoting binging.. I EXPLICITELY ADVICE AGAINST BINGING ON STIMULANTS, if done (too) frequently it WILL get the best of you.. Amphs are a man's best friend, but only if you treat it with the respect it deserves.. Your body and brain need time and good care to restore from a 2-day+ binge, seriously lay off the amphs for a couple weeks at the very least after this, and IF you use them right away again, stick to your therapeutical dosages..
 
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Thanks for this. I am sorry I didn't get back to you earlier. I checked out for a little while and did some more bingeing-- Netflix. Thought maybe I could just take my mind off it, failed... lol It's definitely true for me as well- the anxiety grows the more I "feed" it! I found myself browsing documentaries on Mental Health and Medication.. I just couldn't let it go. So, I decided that I was only getting worse, and did a bit of research on the med itself (digging much deeper than I ever have) and decided I would face the side effects (none of which seem life threatening for me) to glean the benefits of re-upping and crashing tonight, in order to reach a goal and deadline I had set for myself.
 
Oh... sorry- newbie here and learning how this system works! :) That post was supposed to be a direct reply to G.R.S.H
 
LiveALittle- Even though I had already re-upped, it provided a much-desired affirmation that I didn't damage myself irreparably! I have been on Adderall for my ADHD for what seems a lifetime. Only a handful of times have I taken it outside of regimen, but never like this. I am an insomniac, and have been sleep deprived many-a-time, but this is the first time I have ever intentionally caused my sleep deprivation. I think that this knowledge only escalated my anxiety because I had an "Oh, shite!! What have I done?!" type moment. Then realized I didn't know what to next. But hey, I'm not dead! I'm not freaking out anymore and I'M GETTING SO MUCH DONE!! Lol Seriously though,I still had that nagging in the back of my mind wondering if I made the wrong choice and will pay for it in a few hours. THANK YOU for what you said, and reaching out to offer support and comfort!
I'm not looking forward to the crash and withdrawal- didn't know it would be worse than usual! Guess I just wasn't thinking though... cuz "duh!" Haha. I have to return to work on Monday, and there's no way I can function without my Adderall... but I have no plans of ever doing this again, and I most likely won't need to go off-script for any reason.
If you could, I have one more question:
As I said, I have taken my Adderall outside of the doctor's dosage directions, but only a few times, and it was only upping the dose, not taking more frequently or outside of the scheduled times. Because of this, I haven't ever felt like I needed to 'keep taking it'. In your experience, is it likely that I will feel more dependent (addicted,if you like) and fight cravings or urges?
 
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If you have been on adderall for a handful of years and haven't had the idea to abuse it already, then you're doing well. Most addicts couldn't resist the urge to take random doses when they feel a certain type of way.

You're addicted, but you're handling it, if it makes any sense.
 
That makes perfect sense. Thank you for the compliment, and the support! I have struggled many times with the idea that I am indeed "addicted" to my Adderall. I think the last few days have certainly given me an awareness now that plays for the defense on that one. I've always been very quick to quiet my doubts with the statement "if a person with a heart condition takes daily medication for his/her illness- that doesn't make them and addict". However, I suspect that a daily medicated patient with heart problems would think "hmm.. well this medicine has THIS side effect, so how 'bout I just double the dose!"
 
If you could, I have one more question:
As I said, I have taken my Adderall outside of the doctor's dosage directions, but only a few times, and it was only upping the dose, not taking more frequently or outside of the scheduled times. Because of this, I haven't ever felt like I needed to 'keep taking it'. In your experience, is it likely that I will feel more dependent (addicted,if you like) and fight cravings or urges?

I fully agree with PoisonDurban; the fact you've been taking it for so long already and only a handful of times scratched the surface of using them outside of therapeutical dosages, combined with the fact that you're so well aware of how it's "wrong" what you're doing right now, shows that, like Poison said, you're already addicted in the sense that you probably won't be able to function as efficiently without your daily dosage, but I wouldn't see you completely lose yourself to it.. Remain careful though, as an amphetamine addiction is (IME at least) one of the most viscious addictions, in the sense that it builds up very suddenly.. A couple of days of popping Addys compulsively, trying to achieve the euphorical mindstate which amphs give you , and 1. You won't get that euphoria ever again, or at least not in the near future and 2. Getting out of bed and doing your daily shit Will feel like HELL when not on the Addys..

But if you Just keep in charge of the stimulants like you are right now, you're 99.9% safe, addiction-wise. :)
 
Lol 99% huh? Ya, I guess there's always that 1% hanging over your head! lol No, seriously though- thanks again. And yeah- I can tell this is not only NOT going to be a walk in the park, but it's going to be hell. I took my last dose for the day a couple hours ago. One thing I'm surprised about is how effective it has remained with regard to its purpose. But, I have also noticed that I have had to take it more frequently to retain the affect. So instead of my usual 4-5 hour "crash", it starts wearing off at about 2 hours. So, it's like my brain is screaming at me for calling it quits early: "What the hell man?! We have another 2 hours, AT LEAST!! *sigh* Ok, let's get those two hours we need- go grab your candy!"
Oh- by the way, any tips, advice, or possible experiences I may have with this particular withdrawal that you may know about or have to offer?
 
Hi and welcome!

Hope you're finally getting some sleep.
Hello! Thank you for the welcome! Unfortunately, no; I'm not sleeping quite yet... although I wouldn't be surprised is I actually were asleep and just going about my normal routine- like sleepwalking? Haha! Obligations will keep me up until about 10:00. Then I'm gone until 7:00!!! Woooooo!
 
Try meditation and only natural remedies. Big pharma thrives off of people just like u. They make u feel like u need all these different bad types of pills that may help with whatever ur ailments are but can be harmful to other parts of ur body.
 
Hey Navaam, are you still on here? How did it all end up for you? Got over the crash yet?
Would love to hear from you man
 
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