Hi,
Just wanted to say hello, as I'm joining today, but I am actually a "hidden member" for a long time. :D
Bluelight is for me best forum "out there" and I have been using it to double check my decisions numerous times in past few years. You guys have helped me a lot already and I think it is time for me to "go out of the closet"
Few words for introduction - male, 30+, had experience with most of the drugs available. When younger really abused stuff, but now, as a father of 2 year old son in a happy marriage my relationship with drugs is more medical less recreational (but have to admit that I do go on "holidays" here and there, when it is not interfering with "being a good father roll"
).
Diagnosed recently with ADHD (I live in Europe so no Aderall or Dex for me...), and have been having problems with heavy pains in lumbosacral area for past few years (hypolordosis, spina bifida, dorsalgia...). Back pains is what brought me to opioids... I am prescribed tramadol, but as it does not help enough, and country I live in is very conservative regarding pain medications, I am using some other opioids (mostly morphine and oxycodone, rarely methadone...) that I get from friends, who have "access".
Actually that brought me here - I am dancing an opioide dance, and even though I have legitimate medical reasons to use them (my pain sometimes keep me bed bound for few days if I dont use pain medications), I would like keep using them responsibly...
At the moment Im using oxycodone (although MS Contin is something that helps me more than oxy, but at the moment I can only get oxycodone) every 2-3 days, while waiting for magnetic resonance imaging of lumbar spine, scheduled in September (!!!). Currently, my tolerance is around 30mg oxycodone for pain relief, and I never snort them or IV (never IVed anything in my life).
Today my wife and I (my wife is drug free and a beautiful support) decided that I will go for another opiate spree, combined with a gym and physiotherapy (have had one before, and it helped...used oxycodone then kratom to get off...using oxy and K allowed me to exercise and have a normal life). I plan to use more regularly for 2-3 months, then detox and see did it make a difference regarding my back pain.
Without opioid medication I can not exercise....I can not even be a proper dad, as a matter of fact...pain is just to intense.
Opioids are actually first "substance" that I have not abused, and that I treat with respect (I saw to many friends die from H when I was younger, and that is something that keeps me aware of dangers).
So basically that is that for quick introduction.
Thank you for having me as a member, thank you for great info you provide.
I hope I can repay my dues with some valuable information/experience now that I am a member.
(sorry if my English is not top notch - I am from eastern Europe, so it is not my native language )
Just wanted to say hello, as I'm joining today, but I am actually a "hidden member" for a long time. :D
Bluelight is for me best forum "out there" and I have been using it to double check my decisions numerous times in past few years. You guys have helped me a lot already and I think it is time for me to "go out of the closet"
Few words for introduction - male, 30+, had experience with most of the drugs available. When younger really abused stuff, but now, as a father of 2 year old son in a happy marriage my relationship with drugs is more medical less recreational (but have to admit that I do go on "holidays" here and there, when it is not interfering with "being a good father roll"
).Diagnosed recently with ADHD (I live in Europe so no Aderall or Dex for me...), and have been having problems with heavy pains in lumbosacral area for past few years (hypolordosis, spina bifida, dorsalgia...). Back pains is what brought me to opioids... I am prescribed tramadol, but as it does not help enough, and country I live in is very conservative regarding pain medications, I am using some other opioids (mostly morphine and oxycodone, rarely methadone...) that I get from friends, who have "access".
Actually that brought me here - I am dancing an opioide dance, and even though I have legitimate medical reasons to use them (my pain sometimes keep me bed bound for few days if I dont use pain medications), I would like keep using them responsibly...
At the moment Im using oxycodone (although MS Contin is something that helps me more than oxy, but at the moment I can only get oxycodone) every 2-3 days, while waiting for magnetic resonance imaging of lumbar spine, scheduled in September (!!!). Currently, my tolerance is around 30mg oxycodone for pain relief, and I never snort them or IV (never IVed anything in my life).
Today my wife and I (my wife is drug free and a beautiful support) decided that I will go for another opiate spree, combined with a gym and physiotherapy (have had one before, and it helped...used oxycodone then kratom to get off...using oxy and K allowed me to exercise and have a normal life). I plan to use more regularly for 2-3 months, then detox and see did it make a difference regarding my back pain.
Without opioid medication I can not exercise....I can not even be a proper dad, as a matter of fact...pain is just to intense.
Opioids are actually first "substance" that I have not abused, and that I treat with respect (I saw to many friends die from H when I was younger, and that is something that keeps me aware of dangers).
So basically that is that for quick introduction.
Thank you for having me as a member, thank you for great info you provide.
I hope I can repay my dues with some valuable information/experience now that I am a member.
(sorry if my English is not top notch - I am from eastern Europe, so it is not my native language )
