I will try to explain what's been going on. Its me Crevan, my fiancee braught me my latop.
I suffered a serious 2nd term miscarriage and wasn't willing to carry 2 babies to term for a sillbirth and that bunch of ....... heartbreak. I started having breathing issues while visiting my doctor about the "bleeding" and fainted and went into distress and couldn;t breath right due to what we now know is phnemonia. I am trying to currently cope with losing my girls but I am recieving help from concelors and I have saught help for my anxiety and depression.
While I am not 100% and don't think I will be for awhile, I am better than I was a mere 12hrs ago when I thought I was going to die, and surely WANTED to die. I can;t be on here long as I am beyond exhausted and nurse ratchet will be in around 11am to get me walking. I was only intubated until 6am this morning when I demanded it out and I wasable to breathe somewhat good on my own though I do need some forced air a little. I have no been allowed to eat until my doctor comes in this morning, which has me pissed off cause I am dying for some FOOD! lol
I just wanted to let people know that I am on my way to being better and might not be on this site all that much if at all in the next couple weeks.
I hope everyone is doing well. I am glad to say I am seeking CBT and are hoping that I can be medicine free within the next year HOPING but we have to be realistic and it depends on how I progress.
I hope yo uall are well and enjoying this lovely snow....if you are in snowy cities, like I am...... way too much snow here right now and it looks dreadfully cold outside and I have been told it is. I am glad I am nice and warm in my blankies here
Well if anyone wishes to keep in contact with me you can do so through my email.
As I don;t think I have the energy or will to come on here that much.
Much Love to All
I suffered a serious 2nd term miscarriage and wasn't willing to carry 2 babies to term for a sillbirth and that bunch of ....... heartbreak. I started having breathing issues while visiting my doctor about the "bleeding" and fainted and went into distress and couldn;t breath right due to what we now know is phnemonia. I am trying to currently cope with losing my girls but I am recieving help from concelors and I have saught help for my anxiety and depression.
While I am not 100% and don't think I will be for awhile, I am better than I was a mere 12hrs ago when I thought I was going to die, and surely WANTED to die. I can;t be on here long as I am beyond exhausted and nurse ratchet will be in around 11am to get me walking. I was only intubated until 6am this morning when I demanded it out and I wasable to breathe somewhat good on my own though I do need some forced air a little. I have no been allowed to eat until my doctor comes in this morning, which has me pissed off cause I am dying for some FOOD! lol
I just wanted to let people know that I am on my way to being better and might not be on this site all that much if at all in the next couple weeks.
I hope everyone is doing well. I am glad to say I am seeking CBT and are hoping that I can be medicine free within the next year HOPING but we have to be realistic and it depends on how I progress.
I hope yo uall are well and enjoying this lovely snow....if you are in snowy cities, like I am...... way too much snow here right now and it looks dreadfully cold outside and I have been told it is. I am glad I am nice and warm in my blankies here
Well if anyone wishes to keep in contact with me you can do so through my email.
As I don;t think I have the energy or will to come on here that much.
Much Love to All
