HeisenbergCo2
Greenlighter
Today will be the 25th month of sobriety for me, what a journey this has been..I'm telling my story to the whole world for the first time today. I am a 21 year old born in 1993, 220lbs & I was addicted to opiates severely, i mean yeah i smoke pot all the time but who doesn't these days.. Opiates had my kinda-liking from the get go, i started back up in 2007 with a buddy of mine from school, i railed oxycontin for the first time and was put in this awh state of mind that i didn't want to stop, this progressed to a point where i didn't just want to have opiates i needed it, and as i let a bomb go off in my bank account i thought i got smart and started doing H severely(2011). This was my biggest mistake, i was introduced to the devil it self... the needle. This took my life for a spin, with multiple counts of not remembering that time of my life to times where i don't think i even knew who i was, not to mention 4 overdoses. Then the unthinkable happened and i had a drug crisis and told my mother that i was addicted to Heroin, oxy, morphine... you know, the usual. Seeing my mother cry from my own doing was the worst thing i think i have ever seen or felt, this was a friday evening, that upcoming monday i brought my self to the local Methadone Clinic... This was another Best decision/Worst decision type of deals, don't get me wrong methadone is a great substitute for the street life and if you're serious about getting clean you will notice that it is doable. The only major downside of it is that for me, they didn't accept my insurance so i had to pay $20 out of pocket every single morning. This went on for 17 months (2014-2015). I finally have just gotten off the methadone, i had been taking 260mgs of methadone a day (toxic) for a year and came all the way down to 15mgs which is where i was when i left. Normally the councilors want you to wait until you get down to just 2mg to leave so you don't experience that much withdrawal, i didn't buy this because i thought they were just trying to scam me for extra money before i checked out. I was wrong. I left on 3/20/15 and withdrawled HARD for 3 weeks feeling normal about just a week ago. This was worst than any withdrawal i have ever experienced and if it wasn't for my benzo script i don't think i would've made it to be honest, it was the hardest thing i have ever conquered. I have just gotten accepted to a 4 year University and with me being clean from all illicit drugs for 25 months besides my methadone and benzo prescription i feel like i actually have another chance at life, sorry for the rant but i just needed to get my story out there as i assume you already know. Thanks in advance for taking the time to read what i thought was a novel and take care, Just know if you're going through an addiction IT IS POSSIBLE, you have to want it for yourself, anyone who wants to do drugs with you and knows your trying to get clean IS NOT YOUR FRIEND. ~HeisenbergCo2
