Heaven, Hell, Aliens... I was jesus.

[The Winner!!]

I feel the need to tell this forum that I am never doing acid ever again in my life.. I had a psychotic trip where I nearly killed one of my family members and myself.
For the first time in my life I had a bad trip, I believed I was Jesus and heaven and hell were competing over who will have me, the aliens were telling me that I needed to kill myself to be reunited with "the one".

I lost all connections with reality, the world was one big colorful swirly mindfuck with aliens whom voices kept changing and telling me what to do.

Long story short, I ended up running into traffic and getting handcuffs put on me, and in the back of the police car I was bashing my head against the bars, humping the roof of the car yelling FUCK YEAH.

I'm sure none of that made sence, but if any of you have had a bad acid trip, I'm sure you know what it's like to not have any connections with the real world or rationality. I believe I was going schizophrenic. As I was in the hospital for a couple days they told me they have seen people have bad acid trips like that and never recover.

 

[botfly]

FUCK YEAH!! Sorry that just made me laugh.
This is why I don't go near acid or shrooms, for fear of losing the plot. Salvia was horrible for me, thank fuck it only lasted ten mins. I'd hate to go throuugh a bad trip for hours. Only other psychedelic I've had was AMT and that was pretty groovy and comfortable.

 

[StingRei]

This is why I don't go near acid or shrooms, for fear of losing the plot.

That's silly. Just don't do a tremendous amount. Try to keep it within grasp. OP clearly went too far, and may have personal problems that incited a psychotic trip. You ought to know if you're liable to have a psychotic break while tripping from your smaller dose trips.

 

[nearjat]

it always scares me off a bit when people report these kind of reactions from psychedelic drugs. It's such a gamble, I mean sure there are all kinds of precautions you can take but in the end it truly is a gamble.

 

[funkmaster]

It really is not a gamble...
If you have issues in your life, with who you are, or any inner turmoil just stay away.
Especially from high doses of psychedelics.
However if you are open to fixing the problems in your thinking it is a good tool at low doses.
I have only had a bad trip twice both were at insanely large amounts one was lsd and one was shrooms.
I was young and stupid at the time.
Basically within reasonable amount, the right mind frame, set, and setting I see no problems in a normal reasonable person.

 

[love_sex_desire]

I had a similar experience after doing insanely strong hits of acid after a night at a rave where I consumed 5+ caps of ecstasy that were filled with meth. Mixing meth with acid is bad news. I experienced megalomania were I thought I had discovered the answer. I thought that because I had discovered the answer that humanity's purpose was fulfilled and we would all unite into God. As this was occuring the sun began to rise and shown through the window. Insane synchronicity which led me to believe that as the new day began humanity would be enlightened and I needed to go outside and greet the masses. I ended up in traffic as well. Thank the divine source of creation neither of us got hurt!

My problem was I left the rave with people I didn't know and went to an apartment with these strangers where they put on grotesque horror films and there was no where comfortable to sit. Set and setting are key! And sticking with friends is key! If I was with friends they would have never let me run outside, barefoot, to greet the masses! They would'nt have let me get tangled up in my meth-induced psychosis that was compounded after taking the huge dose of LSD either. Stick with friends and do not mix large amounts of speed with large amounts of LSD. I'd stay away from the combo regardless of the doses.

This was about 5 years ago and neverhtheless I still do LSD, but I have learned from my youthful mistakes to never do massive amounts of LSD after a night of irresponsibly eating ridiculous amounts of speedy ecstasy pills and then going off with a bunch of strangers. I never do pressed pills anymore either, but the paranoia of having an insane trip like that still lingers sometimes.

How much acid did you take? Had you taken the same hits of acid before? How strong was the trip compared to past experiences? Were you with friends?

If you plan on ever using psychedelics again maybe stick with more benevolent psychedelics like 2C-I and lower doses of 4-AcO-DMT from now on. Good luck.

 

[nearjat]

It really is not a gamble...
If you have issues in your life, with who you are, or any inner turmoil just stay away.
Especially from high doses of psychedelics.
However if you are open to fixing the problems in your thinking it is a good tool at low doses.
I have only had a bad trip twice both were at insanely large amounts one was lsd and one was shrooms.
I was young and stupid at the time.
Basically within reasonable amount, the right mind frame, set, and setting I see no problems in a normal reasonable person.

I'm not saying its a 50-50 gamble, but it's not like these kind of thing are 100 percent preventable either. You cant always control external variables, and even if you're mentally stable and open minded shit can get pretty wild pretty fast.

 

[Shambles]

And vice-versa. No guarantees either way, in my opinion. Know yourself is as close as it gets to a guarantee - previous or family mental issues are all but irrelevant if that criteria is fulfilled, in my opinionionionion. Perhaps. Don't go thumbprinting during a psychotic break off the back of that...

 

[The Winner!!]

. I experienced megalomania were I thought I had discovered the answer. I thought that because I had discovered the answer that humanity's purpose was fulfilled and we would all unite into God. As this was occuring the sun began to rise and shown through the window. Insane synchronicity which led me to believe that as the new day began humanity would be enlightened and I needed to go outside and greet the masses. I ended up in traffic as well. Thank the divine source of creation neither of us got hurt!

Familiar. Just to be abit more clear, I was at a friends house, I was tripping really good off 3 really strong hits, I've done 5 before and not tripped so hard. But, everything was fine and dandy, I was able to control myself. Everything was fine untill I left their apartment and started to think.

I thought I found the answer, the answer was that I was schizophrenic since birth and that I was a government experiment and that they were observing my patterns.

I was completely convinced that if I co-operated with the aliens that I was going to be reborn into a new and better life. I even thought the paramedics were aliens. Untill they shot me up with a few doses of Ativan, I realized- I'm in restraints in a hospital bed, these arn't aliens and I'm not jesus about to be crusified.

Edit: See, I've done acid in the past knowing that I had deppression, anxiety and other problems, but I had the time of my life, learning about myself even, I suppose you could say. It really surprised me how the smallest thing made my trip end up in hell. I lost my own brain, I thought that the police were driving me to a rip in time where I could do all the drugs in the world.

Aliens were popping out of the swirly fractals reaching out touching me with their weird lookin finger telling me that my identity is the most important thing ever, and that I needed to kill myself to be re-united.

Second Edit: I just wanted to let people know, don't be ignorant like me and think it's not possible to have a hellish trip, I always thought you had to eat like 30 hits to have a psychotic break, all it takes is a bad mind setting.

I don't want to scare people away from the drug, as it is the most wonderful thing when in a good mindframe, just don't be careless.

 

[MyExcuse]

I had a similar experience from GBL withdrawals :D I turned out fine, you will too!

I personally try to limit myself to DMT molecules now, LSD is way too powerful and useful to waste on fun or even casual introspection and spiritual sessions. LSD should be saved for imbuing a psychedelic touch to a memory you want to remember forever.

 

[Sticky A Key]

I'm curious as to how you're holding up now TheWinner? Any feelings of lingering insanity or so forth? Also, do you have any religious beliefs?

 

[malakaix]

I've had situations before, where i felt i was advancing to higher levels of being within the astral plane, and that beyond the material realm.. the same drive for power was pursued but on a purely spiritual level, hence forth justifying my lack of 'drive and ambition' within this realm to succeed above others in primitive pursuits, for i knew there was so much more beyond death.

I don't put to much thought into these ideas, as they cant benefit me in anyway in the present moment, but i remain mindful of them regardless. In my experience, it can usually be retraced back to a basic issue which has simply manifested itself in a very imaginative and creative way.

 

[Nib]

Hmm i wonder how the trip would of went if you were Atheist. I'm sure it would still have been a bad trip, but what would have replaced the whole "god" part of it.

 

[ford442]

i had a trip like that - i was left alone in the woods at night on 8 blotter - i ran into a supermarket yelling about the end of the world and my trip ended at the hospital..

later i was diagnosed with schizophrenia which explains to me why i went so berzerk.. mental disorders and acid don't mix well...

 

[Tromps]

later i was diagnosed with schizophrenia which explains to me why i went so berzerk.. mental disorders and acid don't mix well...

What comes first, the drugs and then the mental disorder, or the mental disorder and then the drugs?

 

[Cybion]

Sorry but I disagree, I was diagnosed with not only Schizophrenia, but also high paranoia in the 7th grade, at that point in time I was always having extremely severe episodes where I was, to put it lightly, simply psychotic. During that time in my life I had to take multiple medications a day just to stay out of the hospital. My doctor actually told me that if I were to stop taking my meds at any point in my life I would most likely end up institutionalized.

When I started doing drugs, I started with LSD and MDMA (rarely) and never touched anything but those for quite some time. I did all kinds of odd experiments with LSD and soon learned that LSD stopped a schizophrenic episode for me if taken during one.

To this day I still do LSD, and I no longer take any medications, and very rarely do I have anything close to an episode. Now, this could have been the LSD or it could have been me growing out of it, who knows. But I've only ever had a bad trip once, which was me doing acid then walking around on Halloween. I thought it would be cool, I wouldn't advise it.

I hope you're feeling better man.
Cybion

 

[RainbowWarrior]

A few weeks back i found myself walking through the spanish landscape on 4-5 hits of good liquid, being followed by about 20 persons and being called messias by them made for an interesting trip...

not exactly the best thing for my messias-complex lol but it was fun nevertheless and i learned a lot in this trip... this trip took me all the way to the great eye (the casuality that is not casual) - and it's burned into my head, i won't ever forget what i was told that day...

high-dose acid-trips can get really intense but if you know your inner self you won't forget who you are only because of the acid, well you might, ego-death, etc, but ime without the ego you won't be able to stand up, let alone move around and end up in traffic... with all my ego death experiences i had left my body lying around somewhere and expanding my consciousness to entail all my suroundings until it was one with everything there is...

being arrested doesn't sound like fun though, that's why everybody preaches to you about set and setting and having a sitter if you are inexperienced...

as for nearly doing what the voices told you... maybe you should think about a way of therapy (imo taking acid is self-therapy) that works more slowly and allows you to come to know yourself in a more rational way... if i were you i wouldn't be scared of the acid but would take it as a lesson that you still have a lot to learn about yourself...

don't blame the acid, blame yourself

 

[The Winner!!]

I'm curious as to how you're holding up now TheWinner? Any feelings of lingering insanity or so forth? Also, do you have any religious beliefs?

I'm sort of traumatized to be honest, no lingering insanity or anything, but all in all I'm fine.

I always thought I was too mentally strong to have a bad trip, I've been on the verge, but talked myself out of it. I definately didn't have ego death, I let my own bad feeling for myself manifest and turn into something ugly.

No doubt I've learnt that set and setting is very important, I thought I was experienced enough to be careless, but that's just plain ignorance, I really regret leaving my friends

 

[inotocracy]

LSD isn't for everyone, and not all can handle a high dose (or even a low dose). Could be you just took too much to handle. Then again, it could also be you just aren't of sound mind and shouldn't be touching the stuff. In my opinion, LSD isn't a gamble. Just make sure you're capable of coping with the effects and don't over do it.

 

[CatfishRivers]

to the OP, out of curiosity, had you used the same acid you took this last time at anytime before? If so, how did those experiences work out?