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Mellabopper

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every sound i hear
every time the door opens
i am wishing it was you
but it never is
and it never will be again
i barely made it home tonight
without breaking down
and the second i arrived
i was shattered into a million pieces
and i stood in a daze
not sure what to do next
standing in the shower
soaked by water
soaked by tears
until it became hard to breathe.
and i’m so scared that i’ve lost you
that you’re gone now
and won’t return
and you wont even think twice about me again
you’ll just forget about me
and move on
to another girl
much prettier than i
who won’t argue with you
or stand up for herself.
i hope you see though
that by letting go
i’m killing myself
because to me
we had become one
and now i’m lost
with only half of me left alive
words cannot describe it
i guess from here on out though
nothing will ever compare
to the pain i feel right now
nothing will ever hurt this badly
i never told you this
but i was falling in love with you
and i’ve never admitted that to myself before
in my entire life
about anyone
so i guess that makes you the first
and the last
or at least for a while
i’m going to lay down and go to sleep now
and if i don’t wake up
then i don’t.
and if you don’t care
then you don’t.
and if you’re already forgotten about me
then fine.
it’s your own life now
and i don’t have a say in it.
hell, i don’t even have anything at all anymore.
2-27-03
 
you’ll just forget about me
and move on
to another girl
much prettier than i
who won’t argue with you
or stand up for herself.

that definately hits home for me.... more than i'd like...
*big hugs*
aj the femme
 
It's interesting how the people you love the most in this world can cut you down into the smallest pieces imaginable, and then spit you out like you were nothing. (<--For the record...I'm not referring to my soulmate-you know who you are.) Much love to you, Mel. I know it's not much, but i'm on your side, girl....
[ 02 March 2003: Message edited by: AleEsh ]
 
Give me his name, Mella and I will go beat him up good! Nobody is allowed to make our Mella sad. :(
Beautiful work, girly. You are one in a million.
SG
 
Heartache, is one of the worst feelings a person could have. It always causes depression. And I wouldn't even wish it on my worst enemy. Even though it doesn't feel like it right now, in time it will get better. You will feel better. Take care.
 
thanks everyone, for your support...
things are kinda just shitty right now.
i just hope things dont get worse...
i just have that lost confused feeling and i don't like it, but i don't know how to get rid of it, either. i'm kind of stuck in a no-win situation.
- Mella
 
hugs mella :)
you gotta go through the rain to get to the rainbow.
you're one of the few people on here who have watched my life-story from the beginning of Bluelight until the present. you never failed to reply with something witty and great... you always had some kind of message that was supposed to make me strong and point me in the right direction. but i guess we all have to find the path ourselves, even though advice from others looks better than our own judgment at times. only you know what is right. remember that corny line i used to always post without fail? you know it girl... things can only get better. i've been telling myself that for many years now. i hope you can believe it.
guys will come and go... friends are forever.
[ 07 March 2003: Message edited by: E-girl ]
 
E-girl - well, damn. It's funny how the tables turn sometimes.
Thanks for digging that out. I have written so much stuff that I forget about most things that I have written.
Thanks again. :)
Mella
 
Hi....
Nice piece, I don't know why, but it made me feel numb....but in a good way.... if that makes any sense!
:D
 
... these feelings haven't left yet... it seems to be becoming a pattern...
... another rough night.
it fucking sucks and it hurts so much. so much.
 
and now i’m lost
with only half of me left alive
words cannot describe it
i guess from here on out though
nothing will ever compare
to the pain i feel right now
nothing will ever hurt this badly

those feelings you mentioned will not leave, at least not for a while and it's a vicious cycle - sometimes when you think you're in the clear it comes back and hurts even more - I still cry almost every night :(
Mella - hope things get easier soon. Like frostyangel had said it will get better in time though it seems impossible now; and you've got friends who are there for you :)
 
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