heartbreak and lonleyness

[redandgreen]

Please someone tell me immediate coping skills / methods of avoiding bad thoughts / cylical depressive thinking, etc. I feel unbearably lonely and sad . I'm thinking of checking myself in to emergency lately its so bad my head hurts I have opies but don't want to use (I do but know how much worse ill feel after). I don't know what to do I excercise intensely regularly, eat extremely healthy, but my life is so fucked and always this horrible black useless nothing of lonelyness even when I have someone around. Meditation has become extremely hard to do for me as the initial five ten minutes of uncontrolled thinking hurts so much. I want my brain off!! Its filled with bad thoughts about ending it but I truly don't want to myself. I feel trapped , alone, unloved. I need a mental health professional how do I get one, I don't have insurance or anything, I'm in canada

 

[Libby]

I love you *hug*

I'm sorry I dont have the answers to your questions.

 

[DeathDomokun]

First off, I think you're a bit confused here. I think you're looking to feel different, as opposed to think differently, but I could be wrong.
I've heard about Cognitive Behavioral Therapy providing coping skills/methods to deal with negative thoughts, so you could try seeing a psychologist/therapist/counsellor
Exercise does release endorphins, but it doesn't help everyone with depression. In fact, it doesn't even affect everyone the same, which is why you have "gym junkies" and people who hate the gym.
A good diet doesn't help everyone's depression, either.
There are many forms of meditation, if you're just trying to observe your thoughts without interacting why not try a different type of meditation?
Loneliness and being alone don't have any correlation IME, you can be alone and content as well as being with people and feeling lonely. You're not alone, especially in this respect, and I hope you feel less lonely.
I'm not going to spurt out my bias on mental health professionals. I don't know if you've got "bulk billing" in Canada, but over here some doctors will get paid by the government for a certain amount and you just have to pay the gap.

 

[redandgreen]

I am a total gym junkie. I just slept a couple restless hours and the last thing I dreamt was the girl I'm infatuated being with someone else and that's the feeling I awoke with. I am going to the gym to try and elevate my mood a little. I need to get thru this I have major responsibilities on my plate and can't go catatonic right now I really can't.. God I haven't felt this bad in some weeks I was doing so good. Girls r my problem I can't cope with thinking someone doesn't want me. Its pathetic but it ties into everything else, feelings of abandonment , my fucked up ptsd I've never ever gotten mental health with. I can barely imagine all the stuff I've tried to deal with alone. I need a therapist badly, or a friend who understands and I can talk to

 

[DeathDomokun]

So you're infatuated with this girl, but you don't love her? She wasn't your partner?
The gym sounds like a great idea for you.
There are plenty of people here who fit the latter.