So I’ve been put on a ton of medications in the last two years for my mental health due to a relationship that wasn’t working out and my addictive tendencies. Now I’m alone and scared and have a lot of of prescriptions. As some of us know, doctors sometimes leave you high and dry or give you too many of something or too many of everything in my case I need some help from the blue light family. I’m feeling so damn alone. Nobody understands me like others who have been through similar situations. Can I please get some advice? I’d love any and all help that I could get as I’m now living alone feeling alone heartbroken. And sad also dealing with new medications and tapering others which isn’t working. I’m just like damn what the hell do I do…finding a new girlfriend obviously isn’t gonna fix me I need to fix me but how the hell do I do that especially with all the access I have.
9am:
-10mg lexapro
-5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg gabapentin (I don’t like taking it, it makes me feel stupid but I think I’m dependent on it now) (600mg 3x daily feels like baseline but I’m trying to taper)
-4-8mg Zofran
11am:
-1200mg NAC with food
1pm:
- 5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg of gabapentin
-4-8mg of Zofran
9pm:
- 5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg of gabapentin
-4-8mg zofran
- 1200mg NAC
11pm:
-2mg lunesta
-2-4mg Prazosin
-9-12mg melatonin
-Docusate Sodium (colace) 250mg
PRN list (benzo dependency):
-Xanax - (not prescribed) 0.5-2mg for panic attacks inconsistent
-Diazepam 5-15mg before socializing or if having benzo withdrawal or rebound anxiety from Xanax or gabapentin I don’t know what’s causing what at this point.
-Clonazepam 0.25-1mg same use as diazepam just less sedating so better for daytime
-Ketamine - (prescribed and not prescribed) 300mg-1000mg
-Occasionally use cannabis for sleep
-Hydroxazine 50mg and clonidine 0.1mg but I haven’t taken those in a week because I don’t want to have a tolorence if and when I need comfort meds hence why I’m mad the doc put me on gabapentin
CBD
CBN
For sleep sometimes
Nicotine vape all day
I do not drink alcohol
I do not take caffeine
Please advise ya boy is in the trenches
9am:
-10mg lexapro
-5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg gabapentin (I don’t like taking it, it makes me feel stupid but I think I’m dependent on it now) (600mg 3x daily feels like baseline but I’m trying to taper)
-4-8mg Zofran
11am:
-1200mg NAC with food
1pm:
- 5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg of gabapentin
-4-8mg of Zofran
9pm:
- 5mg oxycodone
-300-600mg of gabapentin
-4-8mg zofran
- 1200mg NAC
11pm:
-2mg lunesta
-2-4mg Prazosin
-9-12mg melatonin
-Docusate Sodium (colace) 250mg
PRN list (benzo dependency):
-Xanax - (not prescribed) 0.5-2mg for panic attacks inconsistent
-Diazepam 5-15mg before socializing or if having benzo withdrawal or rebound anxiety from Xanax or gabapentin I don’t know what’s causing what at this point.
-Clonazepam 0.25-1mg same use as diazepam just less sedating so better for daytime
-Ketamine - (prescribed and not prescribed) 300mg-1000mg
-Occasionally use cannabis for sleep
-Hydroxazine 50mg and clonidine 0.1mg but I haven’t taken those in a week because I don’t want to have a tolorence if and when I need comfort meds hence why I’m mad the doc put me on gabapentin
CBD
CBN
For sleep sometimes
Nicotine vape all day
I do not drink alcohol
I do not take caffeine
Please advise ya boy is in the trenches
