Heartache

Some of you know I have a strange, deep relationship with my brother. I love him like he was my son and miss him like crazy. He has always been my solid, I have always been his. He hasn't answered an email from me in months. I'm talking like MONTHS. I know he is okay b/c his gf posts pics on facebook and he went to see my parents a month ago. I spoke with him for a minute over the phone while he was visiting them but we didn't really get the chance to talk......
The other thing is , he is in contact w/ my parents.....he a has always said I was more his mother than our mother. I'm fine with the fact that he went there and am not at all jealous of my parents but I know how he thinks of them and the fact that he is contacting them and not me is really weighing on me. If I let myself think about it I just break down. Its eating away at me. I don't understand why he won't talk to me. I have my theories, but he won't even answer me to find out!
I am so crushed about it.
I miss him

whining over.

 

*hugs*

Hope he gets in touch w/you soon

 

If someone asked me if I could have a sister and gave me a choice of who that would be I would:
1) look at the person who posed the question as if they were ia fuckin idiot
2) state in no uncertain terms 'Whadda you a fuckin' idiot? Clearly anyone with half a brain recognizes that ocean would be the bestest sister EVER

then i would have to punch them in their head for teasing me with the idea of having you as a sister.

In short... I am certain your brother truly loves and misses you more than you can realize. Sometimes us guys are just stubborn and/or unaware of the effect of our actions. If we truly knew that we were hurting those we cared the most for through our ambivalence, we would make an effort to correct it.

Not knowing sucks, ocean. I'm sorry this is affecting you. Shit... text me his number and I'll ask him to call you! I am an EXCELLENT meddler!

 

hahah thanks OD
And Mariposa

 

I can't say anything useful, so I'll just offer you a hug as well. <hug>

 

My brother called me today!!!!!!! :D
YAY! Everything is good and I was being a crazy baby for no reason

 

aww, i'm glad he called! i always tend to over analyze situations and think that there's something wrong when there really isn't.

i totally agree with OD too, you'd make the best sister.

 

Sometimes people simply need a bit of time to get their thoughts in order. The fact that you are more a mother than his (and your) actual mother lends creedence to that possibility. Most folks have a love/hate thing with their parents. Oedipus and Elektra (not that I buy into Freud's take on it by any means).

The point? Give it a bit of time and you will probablly both be the better for it.