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BeeBizz

BeeBizz

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was watching the OCD project on TV and they mentioned how they would do their rituals and think that if they didn't do them they might harm others somehow.

This made me remember from past times when I would make little deals in my head like "tap my fingers equally or I'll have bad luck" or stupid thoughts like that.

This never happens anymore, but i used to experience it a couple times a week.

just wondering if this is what OCD is like, only less intense than full-blown symptoms?
 
I have OCD .
And yeah I guess that's what it's like but much worse . I hate OCD lol .
But yeah the finger tapping is pointless but you still do this pointless ritual .

I dunno . Here's a list of things I do before bed which might give you an idea what it's like haha...
- I have to straighten my rug in my room
- I have to straighten the piled magazines by my bed .
- my phone and my iPod have to be sitting perfectley straight and parralell to each other .
- my curtains in my room must be closed but not touching the other curtain too much .

- and moreee . I just don't wanna list them all

But yeah man. ^ these are just some of the things I HAVE to do before going to bed or I'll just be lying in bed not being able to sleep till I finish these rituals .

OCD sucks ballllz . Lol
 
its not so much WHAT you do, rather why you do them.

James, why do you do your rituals? Is it just out of it will annoy you? Or do you do it to prevent earthquakes and the death of your friends?

I went for two years beliving that unless I counted to four as I went through a doorway I would cause a volcanic eruption. Or more selfishly and ignorantly, I used to have to count to four, say my favourite colour, and then think "good thoughts" as I got into bed or I would wake up gay or as a completley different person. Or if I walked down steps rather than jumping down them, id go insane and kill my friends.

It takes alot out of you saving the world from destruction every 2 minutes. 8(

I dont have that anymore fortunatley, though I still have these smaller symptoms, such as if make contact with someone who I think is disgusting, Ill exessivley wash that area to ensure that their personality dosnt rub off onto me. But its not really a problem, and Ive, grown to love my little idiosyncrasies, because theres no use fighting them.

The advice I would give you though, which helped my recovery, is that bad luck dosnt exist! Get really angry at your rituals and think "Fuck you, im gonna see what happens if I dont do you." The only bad luck you could possibly will be pureley placebo based, a creation by your own mind. So just give it a try, luck dosnt exist, and you can gradually reduce your rituals by approaching them in this manner.
 
Great post 7ca5p ! "It takes alot out of you saving the world from destruction every 2 minutes. " This really had me laughing. What a perfect way of summing it up. My ocd is very similiar to what you and james martin have described. Only my ocd mind tends to focus more on the good things in my life that are out of my control and leads me to obsess and in turn it becomes ritualistic behavior to calm the thoughts. Such thoughts are perhaps something bad happening to a family member or my relationship falling apart. Or for instance just posting this the delusional thought that if I post this something bad will happen is currently running through my head......If your reading this I took your advice to heart 7ca5p. :)
 
OP what you mentioned is a sign of OCD. Technically everyone has OCD no matter how small, but the people with disorders are the ones whos lives are affected by it, but we all do show small signs of it from time to time.

I remember when I would be riding in a car every time a sign was completely within the dimensions of the window, I'd have to blink. But that was only if the sign was seen completely through the window, such as if a part of it was outside the windows view, then I wouldn't blink. I did that for years, got kinda annoying, then one day I just kinda stopped without even thinking about it. I'll still notice things like that from time to time.
 
i have small OCD, its actually quite weird it went away for a good while but seems to have come back more recently. the "tapping fingers equal times" kind of shit

i'll look into the magic mushrooms, i can imagine this working
 
a lot of psychotropic drugs help with ocd. Iboga, for sure (although that's a Heavy one), Salvia Divinorum as well will abate OCD. It does for me.
 
Yeah, that "magical thinking" is a key feature of OCD. It's like knowing something is irrational but feeling compelled to do it anyway. Compulsive behaviors are often performed as a way to suppress or distract oneself from underlying anxiety. My OCD is definitely linked to anxiety, and I'm sure others can relate.

Almost everyone can probably identify one or two OCD "traits" in themselves...it becomes true OCD when it causes significant stress or interferes with your ability to function.
 
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