headspace

[madmick19]

with sleep comes happiness comfort confusion anger
all of these emotions run through my body and soul
i undertook a journey of self exploration
trying to clear my head of tattered thoughts
and old memories,
not real sure anymore bout anything
but time doesnt stop for any of us
just passes us by without us realising it
i am on the flipside of my mind
a place of demons and love
the hands of those who love me hold me
the screams of past pain are there
i have listened to my past to my present
this day seems so much brighter than yesterday
today i saw the sun rise from within
it has been a while, there are less thoughts floating round my head now, but still
clarity remains absent
the day can only become brighter as long as those clouds looming on the horizon come near
this time of reconcilliation in myself is comforting as well as painful.
when in my dreams i feel all those suppressed thoughts,feelings.
i visit a place i know, its feels like a big saftey blanket; warm and comforting
while i wander through my soul in slumber
adventures are undertaken, things which i have done before with the same emotions same temprement but now able to confront them
i feel better when i go back to that safe place i feel whole again, ive beaten my demons on my own turf in their terms
i wake in a cloudy headspace cold but stronger
ps: i apologise to all bl's for my ramblings
but i know of no one else to tell
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the consciouness of self is the greatest hinderance to the correct execution of any physical action... u dont exist therefore there are no boundaries or limits

 

[plazma]

eh, if this is rambling, it's damn well written...

thumbs up man!!!
-plaz out-
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[ C E N S O R E D ]

 

[mirabii]

I have this idea about things, where I always believe the best about the friends I make. Sometimes I get disappointed, because my expectations are too high. You, on the other hand, never cease to amaze me... Can't wait to sit down and have a decent chat with you again. Take care of you

 

[madmick19]

thanx mez and plaz,
hope to catch up with you too mez.

 

[BlackMagicWoman]

Pfffft don't apologise for saying things like this!!! It's sooooo not sumthin to be sorry for

Mick, methinks u and I are pretty much in the same place when it comes to this sorta thing....at least, I get that impression from our talks......yes, I know we've had our ups and downs since we met - but I've learned from the downs, and appreciated the ups.....and I hope there'll be lots more of both

I'm not gonna tell you to cheer up - u know me, and u know I think it's important to deal with and process everything, including negative things.....but, while u are dealing with things, u know I am here *hugz* Talkin to u today reminded me of the good things and the good people I've gained in this scene (despite all the shit u gotta put up with to get the good stuff!!)....u are most definitely one of those good things, and don't u forget it!!!! hehehehe
okay okay me gonna stop now.....can't have u and I sayin tooooo many nice fings 'bout each other - there's no fun in that *grins and huggles him*