Retoxification
Bluelighter
So a few months back, i think it was January of February, I took about an eighth and a tad bit more of some pretty good shrooms. At that point I'd done acid a few times, shrooms at least 5-6 times, ecstacy a few times here and there and a few narcotics. I was tripping with a friend of mine from college, we'll refer to him as g, and we were just coming up and stuff nothing to crazy yet. So we downed a bunch of OJ and vitamin drinks. Needless to say about a half hour later i had to go to the bathroom. I went to the bathroom and after taking my piss, i looked in the toilet and it looked like the pisswater was some greenish sludge. I figured that I started tripping and went back with G. So we went on listening to music, discussing life and such, and i had to go back to the bathroom. It was literally about 5 minutes after the first trip to the bathroom. This time i felt like I was going to throw up. I held it in and splashed some water on my face. I wen't back outside and G said that he wanted to smoke. So we proceeded to smoke a joint. So we came back inside, and i felt like there was something vile in my stomach. So i went back to the bathroom. i remember feeling very dizzy and was taking a leak. I don't remember what exactly happened, but i came back to an aware state sitting propped up against the corner of the stall with my glasses about 5 feet away from me. But im almost CERTAIN that i didn't hit my head on anything. I figured I had just sat down because of the overwhelmingness of what I was feeling at the time. (I tend to do that a lot on shrooms, ie. lay down/sit down and just enjoy visuals/thoughts) So shrugging it off i proceeded to wash my hands. When i came back into my room I remember specifically saying, "I don't feel so well..."
After that I woke up in my bed with G watching over me. He had explained to me that after saying that statement, my eyes rolled back into my head and i fell backwards with my head hitting the corner of my dresser. Luckily, upon landing on the floor my head hit a pillow which just happened to be there at the time. Naturally i felt my head to see if there was a bump or anything of the sort, and i felt some liquid. Upon further inspection i discovered that my head had bled a tiny amount. Regardless given my current state of mind it still freaked me the fuck out. At this point 2 other close friends of ours L and N had arrived to help take care of me. I stayed in bed while the three of them watched some movie. I vividly remember the closed eyed visuals I was having as the best i've had in my entire experience with psychedelics(minus dmt). Much better than 4acodmt, salvia, k, acid etc. Throughout these brief memories of what we'll refer to as "dreams" i remember waking up and feeling very well. But, at some point throughout these wake ups, i remember asking specifically, "Is my mind going to die?" At this point N stated, "Theres nothing we can do for him now..." At this point i fell into oblivion and went into what all three of them described as a very deep sleep. I awoke what i presume was about 30-60 minutes later and called G. He arrived at my room and we proceeded to reminisce about what had happened. Upon further inspection by L, he said that as far as surface damage goes, my skull seems fine. (I went a week later to a neurologist and got a few tests done and he said everything seems pretty normal.) This was by far my most intense shrooms trip, yet i felt very at peace the hours after i woke from my sleep. That night i wen't to sleep after sunrise and woke up around sunset. Upon waking up i cleaned the wound and did usual post trip things.
Now the reason that this isn't being posted in trip reports, and is in homeless is because I've felt different since that day. Not bad not good, but different. Maybe more aware, but my memory has been sub par in comparison. It doesn't bother me much I guess but from time to time I get these extremely intense migraines(never had a history of something like this prior to the incident.) to the point where i can't move. This happens once every 2-3 months. I dunno, I mean it was a very positive experience spiritually and I really did enjoy the trip and the visuals I had during the lapses of conciousness and unconciousness. Just kinda concerned about mental health, cause I've had about 5 concussions from various sports injuries prior to this(1 of which caused a month long amenisia.) Like i said it doesn't really bother me I'm just sorta curious about the nature of the incident. Sorry for the lengthy description of the whole event but I'm hoping someone can shed some light on this. Thanks and cheers.
After that I woke up in my bed with G watching over me. He had explained to me that after saying that statement, my eyes rolled back into my head and i fell backwards with my head hitting the corner of my dresser. Luckily, upon landing on the floor my head hit a pillow which just happened to be there at the time. Naturally i felt my head to see if there was a bump or anything of the sort, and i felt some liquid. Upon further inspection i discovered that my head had bled a tiny amount. Regardless given my current state of mind it still freaked me the fuck out. At this point 2 other close friends of ours L and N had arrived to help take care of me. I stayed in bed while the three of them watched some movie. I vividly remember the closed eyed visuals I was having as the best i've had in my entire experience with psychedelics(minus dmt). Much better than 4acodmt, salvia, k, acid etc. Throughout these brief memories of what we'll refer to as "dreams" i remember waking up and feeling very well. But, at some point throughout these wake ups, i remember asking specifically, "Is my mind going to die?" At this point N stated, "Theres nothing we can do for him now..." At this point i fell into oblivion and went into what all three of them described as a very deep sleep. I awoke what i presume was about 30-60 minutes later and called G. He arrived at my room and we proceeded to reminisce about what had happened. Upon further inspection by L, he said that as far as surface damage goes, my skull seems fine. (I went a week later to a neurologist and got a few tests done and he said everything seems pretty normal.) This was by far my most intense shrooms trip, yet i felt very at peace the hours after i woke from my sleep. That night i wen't to sleep after sunrise and woke up around sunset. Upon waking up i cleaned the wound and did usual post trip things.
Now the reason that this isn't being posted in trip reports, and is in homeless is because I've felt different since that day. Not bad not good, but different. Maybe more aware, but my memory has been sub par in comparison. It doesn't bother me much I guess but from time to time I get these extremely intense migraines(never had a history of something like this prior to the incident.) to the point where i can't move. This happens once every 2-3 months. I dunno, I mean it was a very positive experience spiritually and I really did enjoy the trip and the visuals I had during the lapses of conciousness and unconciousness. Just kinda concerned about mental health, cause I've had about 5 concussions from various sports injuries prior to this(1 of which caused a month long amenisia.) Like i said it doesn't really bother me I'm just sorta curious about the nature of the incident. Sorry for the lengthy description of the whole event but I'm hoping someone can shed some light on this. Thanks and cheers.
