He Sleeps

This monster, I truly don't wish to wake him. Lately, he's been only half-asleep so I move quietly so as not to get him started.

Sometimes I find myself poking him. This is a dangerously stupid thing for me to do. But I can't help it.

If he wakes up, he will take control of everything and who knows when he'll sleep again.

I know he wishes me to have nothing but him and is quite skilled at eliminating everything I care for in life. There is no room for my monster and anything else. He demands everything.

I poke and poke and poke knowing full well that he will eventually poke back at me. His pokes often come in the form of metal.

I poke him, he pokes me, metal pokes my veins.

Please stay sleeping.

 

Stay strong and fight him. I know you have what it takes.

 

Shall I come over and give the monster a large dose of seroquel? That should keep him sleeping a bit longer! Seriously though, stay strong dude! You have our support.

 

Thanks guys, I still fuck with myself by thinking about the entire process of shooting coke. I guess its part of the process.

 

^ You're not alone there. For me, the process or "ritual" of smoking meth was almost as addictive as the drug itself! The mere thought of it is a major trigger.

 

OD- You can totally do this!
You have come SOOOO far, you wouldn't wanna go back now , would you?
Think of the disappointment you will feel.
AND THINK OF THE ACCOMPLISHMENTS you have made sober!
You're tough. You will keep fighting him back until you no longer feel the presence.......
Stay Strong and I will be sending you positive vibes.