brandonladd
Greenlighter
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- Dec 30, 2010
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Let me start by saying opiates are my all time favorite drugs, or at least tied with weed. I've been using them for almost 4 years, semi consistently. That includes hydro, codeine, heroin, (bug jump there i know) dilaudid, opana and of course the holy grail oxycodone. My DOC as my probation officer once said, and I think she was right. I switched to opana mainly for about a year because it made sense bang for buck-wise, but if i could have a lifetime supply of just one its OC. Anywayysss, i experiences normal opiate-user things during these years. That is the no tolerance time, when youre just blown away by how awesome they are, then having to move on to higher doses for the same high. around this time i switched primarily from anything to mostly 30s and opanas (OCs were gone by this point) so my tolerance had obviously risen. At my highest point of tolerance, i was feeling good at 20mg opana, 40mg+ oxycodone, and i was also doing heroin a lot. I was a fuck up, my life was a bad and strange place.
There's some background info, now here's the problem. At one point maybe almost a year ago, i was kicked out of my house and moved in with a "friend". It turned out this guy is 1000% sociopath, fed off nothing but making me feel like shit, it was ridiculous. It put me into a confusing and intense depression. At this point i could enjoy nothing in life. No opiate dose was good enough, I'd puke before I felt anything. To any of you who love your opies, you can imagine how hopeless this would feel. The same thing happened for weed, the dankest dank was nothing to me. This was all simpy beause of this cock fuck piece of shit. I wont go into detail on what exactly hes like because its besides the point.
So months pass, I finally move back into my house, get a job and my life back on track quite a bit. Over time i realize life has been so shitty simply bcause of this massive depression, and I decide as I make my way out of it I will start to enjoy the things in life I like again. However, even at this point I'm not getting anywhere with opies. I got 20 30s last friday, what a wild weekend that would have been for me before, but I got nothing more than a good social buzz and a more content train of thought. Nothing like the awesomeness I wouldve before. My physical tolerance is relatively low at this point. I know this because I puke again at a much lower dosage than I once did. Sooo..anybody with similar stories, anybody whos finding it hard to get high nowadays, or anybody whos' depression has severely lessened their drug using experience, please share what you have to say and help me/anybody else out. :D
There's some background info, now here's the problem. At one point maybe almost a year ago, i was kicked out of my house and moved in with a "friend". It turned out this guy is 1000% sociopath, fed off nothing but making me feel like shit, it was ridiculous. It put me into a confusing and intense depression. At this point i could enjoy nothing in life. No opiate dose was good enough, I'd puke before I felt anything. To any of you who love your opies, you can imagine how hopeless this would feel. The same thing happened for weed, the dankest dank was nothing to me. This was all simpy beause of this cock fuck piece of shit. I wont go into detail on what exactly hes like because its besides the point.
So months pass, I finally move back into my house, get a job and my life back on track quite a bit. Over time i realize life has been so shitty simply bcause of this massive depression, and I decide as I make my way out of it I will start to enjoy the things in life I like again. However, even at this point I'm not getting anywhere with opies. I got 20 30s last friday, what a wild weekend that would have been for me before, but I got nothing more than a good social buzz and a more content train of thought. Nothing like the awesomeness I wouldve before. My physical tolerance is relatively low at this point. I know this because I puke again at a much lower dosage than I once did. Sooo..anybody with similar stories, anybody whos finding it hard to get high nowadays, or anybody whos' depression has severely lessened their drug using experience, please share what you have to say and help me/anybody else out. :D
