^That's a whole lotta money. Gee, you'd think you were getting a one on one with Jesus himself for that kind of cash. No wonder they write scripts so quick. Gotta keep 'em happy (and by that I mean drugged up).
I'm sorry for the negativity I've brought to this thread, actually. But I had to vent it somewhere, because I feel like - no, I DID get a raw deal. Today I was so anxious about nothing, you know, the usual - feelings of impending doom, afraid to leave the house,etc - that I started schizophrenia -ing again, which is most unpleasant, to be sure, and I knew I wouldn't make it through another boiling hot Melbourne day without facing up to my old GP who turned me out with a disgusted look on his face, and doing whatever had to be done to get a damn script for valium. He used to listen carefully and watch my eyes - even when I turned on the crazy lamps - and sometimes he'd write a script (usually he would rather than not) with conditions attached - no alcohol at the same time. I fucking loved that guy. He was so damned reasonable.
That's why it hit me so hard when that ass-hat of a psychiatrist sent my GP a letter which changed his whole demeanor. I hated that 'closed doors' shit. Fuck them and their superiority complexes. But, what happened today when I bit the bullet (so to speak) and called and asked to see Dr X - my regular dude who'd abandoned me it seemed - what happened was that I got a lovely South Korean lady doctor who listened to me, wasn't freaked out (well, not too muchm, I can't help but radiate psychic violence at times of duress), immediately agreed to write my old modest script of 20x 5mg diazepam, and even let me read THE LETTER that the Psychiatrist of death had written to my old GP. I saw her reading something and asked" May I know what you're reading, as it a cause of great concern that the Psychiatrist I was referred to has done something to corrupt my professional relationship with Dr X, who I had previously held in high regard?"
And she let me read it. How reasonable is that. She wrote me a script, showed me the letter that had been haunting me for the last two months, and even suggested that I try and repair the misunderstandings caused by the dud psych.... all in within ten minutes, bulk-billed. I feel I owe it to her, although I'm almost 100% positive that she wouldn't peruse these forums, to simply give credit where it's due. There are some doctors out there who are still in touch with their human side and even care enough to - in a window of merely a few minutes - try to repair damage done by one rotten apple. Goddess bless this South Korean Wonder Woman