having a baaad night

[unicorn83]

why weren't you there when i needed you?
why didn't you stay by my side?
i needed you so much
i need you now to tell me it'll be ok
i need you now to stay.
why am i here still all alone
crying the same tears
why am i stll here?
still silently screaming out.
why are people so cruel?
selfish?
on their own?
why am i still crying over years that have long gone?
why do i still need you when you betrayed me, when you were ok.
why am i stll crying tears of anger,
pain,
guilt,
and shame?
why am i hiding away from what is true..
what if i fucked up
what if i want to die
what if i hate the fucking sight of you
will u really care
when you lay your flowers
on my grave?
[ 27 April 2002: Message edited by: unicorn83 ]

 

[E-girl]

why am i still crying over years that have long gone?
why do i still need you when you betrayed me, when you were ok.
because your heart is still with this person. and the heart doesnt like to let go easily.
i know your pain. cuz its a pain i have too. and i feel so badly for you. wish i could give you a hug and we could cry togehter.. but what would it solve? we can sit around and cry, you and i... or we can go out there and have a thousand happy days without that person.
i thought we could be friends. now i see its going to take letting him go completely, to heal me.
i dont know what to tell you. just that... you gotta stop crying those tears of yesterday. tomorrow is so beautiful.

 

[Furnace]

stay strong, b/c no matter how bad it gets, there are ppl who know how you feel, and willing to talk and listen.
much love,
Taz.

 

[cherub]

thank you so much for sharing so many people feel the same way at some point and can relate,
chin up !