ZombieK
Bluelighter
Damn, I need to pass the fuck out like ASAP! I've been up since Wednesday. My brain is so dead that I can't get what I want to say out correctly. I'm pretty certain this post has taken 3 hours to attempt & I've gotten nowhere. Seriously guys, I have literally just written, then rewritten, & then erased a essay. I can't fucking think straight or remember anything. Basically I hadn't smoked speed for about a month before Wednesday. But this comedown got pretty bad Friday night. We were outside in complete darkness & I started seeing large fast movements around me or out of the corner of my eyes. & driving home I started doing random head neck mouth and arm twitching. So when my friend & I finally get home Sat morn 545am we were so tired & already coming down we actually wanted to sleep so we smoked some weed & I took a Norco to try & take that last of the edge off to pass out & it just did not work out. (She also asked if I was having any hallucinations because she was seeing shit herself). I was so physically tired, even my brain was fucking tired. But as bad as I just wanted to sleep, I laid down, closed my eyes & I got to the almost fully asleep state & then I would do one hard enough twitch & wake & startle myself so bad my heart was in a constant pounding, it was beating so fast that when I tried to make myself lay still I would relax to the almost sleep & BAM/twitch/heart pounding/panic! So then I tried doing Panic/Anxiety attack techniques didn't work, then I tried laying down with my hands under my back so I could stop the twitch with my back & then my arms would ache & my head or mouth would do a hard twitch because my hands couldn't. Then if it wasn't that bullshit I am hearing shit now. Like I'll be downstairs & I can hear my friend upstairs talking & I'm like wtf because this was after she left. Then I'd hear music, now I'm back to seeing shit but way more intense now because in the corner of my eyes I see someone walk by my door, over and over. Or as I'm typing I see this guy right next to me moving in my peripheral it startles me I look & it's not really there. Anyone know why I'd have & am still having such intense after effects. I have only seen shit & heard shit way back when I would do ecstasy binges or heroin. I have smoked so much more dope & for way longer periods then I did these few days & I've never had an experience like this. I'm not digging seeing & hearing shit from meth at all. Ughh! Also I got busted by my mother today & she made me piss test & I came back positive for speed, opiates, heroin, ecstasy, & weed. The only thing that should be in my system was weed, opiates, and speed. I haven't done H or X in ages. So wtf I feel like I smoked something cut with or fucking laced with shit. I really have not a clue. If anyone can try & explain this crazy shit to me I'm all ears cause I'm fucking tripping madd shit right now..
