kushblowin
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i dont know what the hell is going on. i was just being normal and taking xanax here and there but idk if it was a reaction i had or if its cut with something weird but i definitely feel "alz" in there. i was awake for like a week straight and felt like i was rolling. i was doing xanax, weed, and opiates and still couldnt sleep. i got sick of the drugs and shit after that and just decided to quit and ive been mostly sober just taking a little bit of benzos and smoking a little bit and i just cant fucking sleep. going asleep on little to no drugs after stopping for 10 years just feels so weird to me. ive been crying for no reason and just all over the place. im afraid to close my eyes because my thoughts are just everywhere and i just toss and turn for hours.
i havent even been taking a lot of xanax ive just been taking .25-.5 and barely smoking weed. i tried a scoop of kratom (1g) before going to bed to see if it would help me relax and i just got opiate rage and was just tossing and turning angry about everything just freaking out. i feel really alone at night now that im sober which is making it a lot worse and i havent had friends or a girlfriend in awhile. every time i took xanax before i just knocked out whenever i wanted and i sleep through everything for 12 hours straight i dont get why a little bit of xanax isnt knocking me out or anything even with no tolerance. i even went crazy one night and just popped a bar, smoked, and took some kratom and i felt amazing and relaxed but i still couldnt sleep.
as soon as i close my eyes i just feel like im going crazy in my head even sober or on drugs. ive never been like this in my entire life i used to just smoke weed and sleep and even if i just smoke weed and take a .25 of xanax i cant sleep and just feel restless for hours trying to sleep. i have insomnia but it has never been anything like this before. i havent been eating a lot which gives me insomnia but it shouldnt be THIS bad. i have really bad anxiety but its never kept me awake like this.
does anyone have any advice? ive managed to get the bare minimum of sleep but im dying and exhausted and i keep staying up until like noon. this is ruining my life
i havent even been taking a lot of xanax ive just been taking .25-.5 and barely smoking weed. i tried a scoop of kratom (1g) before going to bed to see if it would help me relax and i just got opiate rage and was just tossing and turning angry about everything just freaking out. i feel really alone at night now that im sober which is making it a lot worse and i havent had friends or a girlfriend in awhile. every time i took xanax before i just knocked out whenever i wanted and i sleep through everything for 12 hours straight i dont get why a little bit of xanax isnt knocking me out or anything even with no tolerance. i even went crazy one night and just popped a bar, smoked, and took some kratom and i felt amazing and relaxed but i still couldnt sleep.
as soon as i close my eyes i just feel like im going crazy in my head even sober or on drugs. ive never been like this in my entire life i used to just smoke weed and sleep and even if i just smoke weed and take a .25 of xanax i cant sleep and just feel restless for hours trying to sleep. i have insomnia but it has never been anything like this before. i havent been eating a lot which gives me insomnia but it shouldnt be THIS bad. i have really bad anxiety but its never kept me awake like this.
does anyone have any advice? ive managed to get the bare minimum of sleep but im dying and exhausted and i keep staying up until like noon. this is ruining my life