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Have you ever regretted the first moment you used MDMA?

I was a big time partier and self acclaimed etard. But after a while the depression outweighed the euphoria of the roll. Of course rolls led to other stimulants to party for multiple nights in a row and good ol heroin became my comedown drug of choice. I could roll for days straight and finally sleep soundly for a good 15 hours and wake up refreshed. Next thing you know I was mixing them because the combined euphoria was the pinnacle of human pleasure (Maxed out serotonin and dopamine) but eventually I became dependant on dope and no longer even had the money to smoke weed let alone roll ( this coming from someone who smokes a quarter ounce a day to himself) but for some reason I couldn't stop. It was a painful road that I still frequent. I still use dope because where i live that's all that's available now. It's a shame. I miss lining up some shards and blowing up my friends phone to tell him how much I loved him :) I love yoh guys :) that's all from this retired etard
 
I only regret the fact that after I'd done MDMA I felt more inclined to try other drugs cause hey, if I could do MDMA, then why not try all these other rave drugs? And then that's how I ended up with ketamine and cocaine problems. But I'm working on that now. I think that perhaps if I had done MDMA as an adult instead of a teenager, I would have been more responsible and less reckless.
 
Depends who you are around as well,

I started out on MDMA, but tbh, Im annoyed noone told me ketamine helped with the comedown!

So there was me eating some nice crystal mdma every month at a rave,
and, come tuesday fucking hell it was harsh.

(Once a month )
 
I think people don't realize that every action, whether it is positive or negative, will result in an consequence that is also positive or negative. The whole energy is neither created or destroyed, only transformed, I think in some strange cosmic way applies to our life too. People also don't realize our future is the sum of the actions we make, and yes we live in the moment, but think about the outcomes of every step you take. I don't think enough people ask themselves if all the "consequences" (good and bad) of rolling have been worth it. I'm glad you can see my point of view, and for others who are 100% happy with the entire MDMA journey (not saying I'm totally unhappy with it), that is awesome and I am happy for you :)
 
Another thing, I agree with what so many of you have said, the most important thing is taking your high perspectives and applying them to your sober life, which actually I would not regret for anything when you think about it in that sense, the choice to be happier is so much easier to take knowing both worlds
 
D n A said:
I only regret the fact that after I'd done MDMA I felt more inclined to try other drugs cause hey, if I could do MDMA, then why not try all these other rave drugs? And then that's how I ended up with ketamine and cocaine problems. But I'm working on that now. I think that perhaps if I had done MDMA as an adult instead of a teenager, I would have been more responsible and less reckless.
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I'm very glad I didn't try MDMA in highschool. I think the results would have been disastrous for me. I definitely do not regret doing it, I think even if it takes you down a bad road, there is a lesson to be learned and something positive to take away from the experience.
 
Me too, my first roll was at 21 and I could barely control it at first, if at all. I saw no reason to moderate it until I was into it for a while. If I tried it back in high school it would have ruined my life.
 
For me since I am still quite new to this journey (I had my very first roll in June 2011) it has been really positive. The experiences themselves were healing, uplifting, spiritual and bound me to friends in ways I don't believe anything else could. It has also changed my perspective on the whole "drug war" and also the idea that everything illegal is bad and everything legal is good.:X (fuck alcohol!) I used to be a certified D.A.R.E kid so this is one hell of a flip flop for me - but a necessary one. Now I recognize the need for both privacy and freedom of choice. I should be allowed to take whatever the fuck I want and as long as the harms end with me everybody else including Uncle Sam should shove it.

The one downside, and I use that word lightly could be attributed to the way that the drug has changed my perspectives about the world and society as a whole. It caused me to do a pretty large about face in my views on capitalism and the inequalities in our world but I will save that discussion for an entirely different forum...all in all my MDMA travels have been AMAZING and I would not trade them for anything. I am also glad that I chose to wait until I was an adult to have my first experience. I was offered E for the first time years ago by a friend who was going to take me to my first rave...I think if I had tried it back then when I was really young that it could have caused problems in the form of possible psychological addiction. Back then my home life was suckworthy and while I exercised good judgment even as a young person I also know the feel good, at one with everyone feelings that the drug allows you to experience would have been very addictive. I am now at a place in my life where I can enjoy the roll, gain insight from my mind and heart being open but also respect that it is a drug and not abuse the crap out of it

*hops down from soap box*
That is all :)
 
rave_itsrealfun!!! said:
Definately no regrets, it showed me what I need to do to make the most of my life. If I could do it all over again, I wouldn't have used it so much at first though, because then it could still be a semi-regular part of my life. I went overboard, and now I can only use it a couple times per year. It hasn't done shit to me though, my body and mind have never been better, and I'm certainly not addicted to it. I rarely think about rolling, but it has totally become a part of who I am.

Regret isn't the nicest concept, but it's a pretty accurate description concerning the way I feel about my chronic marijuana use though. So long as I can quit that shit, I will have no regrets, but I just "relapsed" after being off it for 3 months and smoked a quarter pound in a month. MDMA has shown me the light, but that fucking dope makes it impossible for me to implement my new way of thinking into my life. FUCK WEED
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I doubt weed causes your addictive personality. A QP a month? try dabbing oil. Careful with drugs in general, seeing you got addicted to marijuana.


And I do not regret trying MDMA. I never will.
 
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