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Hi everyone, I pose this question to you all because it happened to me recently.

A few months ago I was having a wild roll while on MDMA, and I met this girl and I accidently fell in love with her. I have fallen in love once before with a girl and we lasted 4 years together, at the peak of my love for her then is how I felt this night.

We spent the whole night going into the morning together, talking, dancing, kissing, it was truly a magical night.

The next day I could not get her out of my head, we texted each other and unfortunately she lived on the other side of the country.

As seriously freaking creepy as this is, I actually went and saw her and we spent another MDMAZING night together which only fuelled my feelings even more and now it is completely doing my head in. I had way more MDMA than her on both nights and now I feel that I think way more highly of her than she does of me. Yes I should accept that fact that, dude, she lives thousands of miles away, forget about her and move on, but I really just can't at the moment but I will eventually in time because we all move on in the end, just like how I did with my ex girlfriend.



EDIT: Yes I have gotten over her. Miraculously a couple weeks after I rolled again with different girls and slept with them. But she sent me this really bitchy text the Sunday after I was with those ladies and all my positive feelings towards her just kind of slipped away.

I love life and all of its ironic ways.

So, have any of you fell in love due to a magical night with MDMA?
 
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Yeah last weekend. I think I fell in love with her. It was just sex (which i couldn't reach to the end because of mdma )
When I see her in the morning, she wasn't any charming as she was when we met on the effects of E.
I texted her, she didn't reply, maybe because I asked her name..
Nevermind, love doesn't exist. Just "liking" not "loving".
 
yes, still love her to this day and if I knew where she was I would have ran to her in an instant. I was so infatuated with her that she was all I could think about for a time. many years later and married to a different woman and very happy. I still think of her from from time to time but they are just fond memories now instead of a hole in my heart.

I think I was in the same "zone" as you. I was way more into her than she was to me but there was enough there was enough there that we were always together everytime we rolled. It was the best non-relationship I ever had.

MDMA releases Oxytocin in brain. this is the chemical responsible for bonding and what makes it so easy to fall in love on MDMA. now some choose to dissimss this as "its just the drug talking" but it is real enough to me because I didn't go falling for any girl I talked to at a rave. yes they were atractive and we had fun and interesting conversations but they just didn't move me like her. you need to decide for yourself if what you felt is real or not.
 
These are stories I like hearing!

@Matt, this is what I hope, to turn this experience into find memories and not the hole in my heart, I'll get there one day.

I love how carefree it makes me feel and how I bond so easily with others, putting me in a perfect state of bliss. The unforgettable memories that I still carry are the best to daydream about.

Keep the stories and the good times rolling!

PLUR
 
Maybe you saw "it" in her eyes. Happened with me and my GF.
It being God, the Universe, Life, the Soul, ...

Enjoy the feelings, that's what life is about ! :)
 
Question for OP...does she seem interested sober to talk and see where things can go or is the distance a dealbreaker?

I fell in love with the guy I'm engaged to 3 years ago on MDMA. We spent 2-3 months dating before we finally rolled together but I guess you could say that's what solidified our bond and choice to be in a relationship together.

I've rolled with many guys on quite a few occasions, but never developed these feelings for them. Guess my fiancé was just the right one :)
 
Maybe you saw "it" in her eyes. Happened with me and my GF.
It being God, the Universe, Life, the Soul, ...

Enjoy the feelings, that's what life is about ! :)



Question for OP...does she seem interested sober to talk and see where things can go or is the distance a dealbreaker?


I saw her a few weekends ago when I flew over, and I definitely saw 'it' in her eyes, she's so lovely it does my head in. But she hasn't been communicating much until yesterday she texted me saying that she missed me and wish I came back. I said I'm heading back in two months because I genuinely always had a thing for the city she lived in, and when I went over I had one of the best weekends if not the best of my life, I had a checklist in mind of what I wanted to do and I completed it.

Checklist;
Cut absolutely loooooose in a random city
Dance how we do back home and should them how we roll!
SHOW THEM HOW TO ROLL
Catch up with her

The distance isn't a dealbreaker but it's not ideal; for every 10 jobs we have here there is 1 in her city (and yes it actually is a city) so that's the only problem. I love her city where everyone is so much nicer, their food is better, rent is cheaper. My heart tells me to move but I'm scared about the lack of economic opportunities; but money can't buy happiness.
 
This has happened to me also.....it happens much easier when you are on mdma. The only thing you can do is give it time and REALLY get to know the person. More often then not you will get to see that they are not right for you and the feelings will fade and you can move on. If you come to find you are perfect for eachother that's great too.

But just recognize that although there was amazing chemistry and magic...you really barely know this person, so just give it time and realize that you don't know this person yet so you shouldn't be beating yourself up about loving them or not getting to see them...those feelings combined with comedown depression can make you feel very sad, I know exactly what that's like.
 
First time I ever did MDMA was with a female friend of a female friend who I had just met that night. It was her first time too. Madly in love. Things didn't really work out in the end though, the magic was only there while we were under the influence. Still, it was a good experience.
 
@Lucid, yes that is exactly it. The day after I first met her was so depressing, I kept reminding myself that I was feeling this due to a depletion of serotonin but my human side kept kicking back in saying "you just met an amazing girl and you'll never see her face again".

Very happy I did see her again though!

But you are right, other factors kept coming into play that remind myself why it cannot and will not be.
 
Hm I found that I see people as way more beautifull then they are and I open up very easily but actually falling in love with someone? Not likely if I didn't like them sober really, booze can do that to me though..
 
I've fallen in love with just about everything around me with MDMA. I literally felt like I lost a family member when i accidentally ripped a pillow in half on MDMA.
 
Yes I fell in love with a man quite a lot younger than me and even left my wife and set up house together.
Fell out of love about 3 months later.
Love's weird like that they should have a War on Love. (kidding)
 
I've fallen in love with just about everything around me with MDMA. I literally felt like I lost a family member when i accidentally ripped a pillow in half on MDMA.

HAHAHAHA THIS MADE MY DAY!

@Augusta, I'm not married but I wanted to move over there just to be in an amazing city and be with her.

Googtimes<sadtimes
 
Absolutely yes. But was only "in love" when we rolled. Sober -- not so much. Jus like Septonn said, only when we were under the influence.
 
it's quite bad hey.. its like experiencing fairy tale love for one night then waking up to reality the next day.. craving to dream again
 
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