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Mental Health Have you ever come close to being/been arrested as a result of drug use?

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danosaurous22

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I am extraordinarily lucky but not out of the woods yet. Cocaine has almost gotten me arrested several times. Overdoing it and going days without sleeping on crazy binges leads me to do very absurd things in public, nothing destructive but basically just psychotic wandering and acting very very weird. I've had the cops called on me by neighbors and my apartment complex has even identified an "unwelcome intoxicated stranger" wandering the halls at night, without realizing it was me, a tenant there. Cops have come up to me on occasion and asked me if I had seen a suspect roaming around and "acting weird", and somehow in the midst of it I've talked my way out of it the few times that's happened. It's very weird how lucky I've gotten. Locked out of my apartment smoking crack in my car in the back, somehow talked me way out of it even though I was drunk and fucked up when they were interviewing me. Landlords not connecting the dots and I guess nobody really recognized me in those states. Wandering the streets for hours and hours erratically and somehow evading the law even though I was very clearly not with it. This isn't to brag or marvel at it it's more just a sobering thought that any of those 7 or 8 times I was really fucked up in public I could've gotten really really fucked over by the police, for holding and for being intoxicated and whatever. Unfortunately the behavior still continues just a little more careful about it, but man that shit could be life ruining so easily and I am so grateful to have my sanity and not have been arrested.
 
You need to stop doing that or your going to get arrested for some bullshit or sent to the psych ward. A guy from the town up from me recently got all fucked up on crack, went running into the woods all paranoid, then beat the windows out of someone house. He was not only locked up in the psych ward but also charged

I realize you havent done anything like that but thres so many ways that interacting with the police can go badly
 
I know man it's so fortunate that didn't happen those times. I don't know if you've experienced that type of psychosis but the behavior is truly inexplicable and I would've gotten booked for it so easy had they caught me at the right place at the right time. I really can't believe that I still have my mind intact from the worst of it all, shit like going outside, hallucinating wildly and coming back inside, hallucinating some more and going outside, all in broad daylight. The worst is at night though where I am truly just holding out til daylight and there's no alcohol for sale and no excuse for just wandering wildly. I can't help but feel these situations were the cops taking pity on me for whatever reason. I was outside smoking a cig tripping hard on coke and a cop pulled up and asked me if I was the one who called the cops on somebody acting really weird, and I just was able to get out of it. He must have known it was me
 
The worst part of it is to get that fucked up I basically have to come up and come down like 30-40 times in a binge, where I'll be tripping the fuck out and can't even stomach any more and then every time I come down from that I do a bigger dose once the psychosis wears off mostly, but then the psychosis will just get worse and worse every time and it's like there's no limit to the insanity regardless of whether I'm coming down in between episodes or not. Torturous drug if you have an appetite for getting super out there
 
That being said my behavior is mainly limited to just standing in place and surveying my environment, or sort of walking quickly so as to avoid seeing any kind of freaky shit in my peripheral. Very strange and noticeable but no RDJr climbing into people's houses and shit. Sure that's a possibility though with enough trials and tribulations
 
danosaurous22 said:
I am extraordinarily lucky but not out of the woods yet. Cocaine has almost gotten me arrested several times. Overdoing it and going days without sleeping on crazy binges leads me to do very absurd things in public, nothing destructive but basically just psychotic wandering and acting very very weird. I've had the cops called on me by neighbors and my apartment complex has even identified an "unwelcome intoxicated stranger" wandering the halls at night, without realizing it was me, a tenant there. Cops have come up to me on occasion and asked me if I had seen a suspect roaming around and "acting weird", and somehow in the midst of it I've talked my way out of it the few times that's happened. It's very weird how lucky I've gotten. Locked out of my apartment smoking crack in my car in the back, somehow talked me way out of it even though I was drunk and fucked up when they were interviewing me. Landlords not connecting the dots and I guess nobody really recognized me in those states. Wandering the streets for hours and hours erratically and somehow evading the law even though I was very clearly not with it. This isn't to brag or marvel at it it's more just a sobering thought that any of those 7 or 8 times I was really fucked up in public I could've gotten really really fucked over by the police, for holding and for being intoxicated and whatever. Unfortunately the behavior still continues just a little more careful about it, but man that shit could be life ruining so easily and I am so grateful to have my sanity and not have been arrested.
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Ounce you realize non that stuff is real during psychosis it helps you a lot.
 
That's weirdly where I've got to now. I still can't help but act sketchy when I'm losing my mind, but in the first few experiences of psychosis I would be genuinely confused about whether or not my hallucinations were real or just in my head. I would have to leave my apartment because movement in the corner of my eye meant that there was definitely something in the room with me and I was going to be bit or attacked if I stuck around long enough to figure out whether it was real or not.

Nowadays, I've realized that a lot of my hallucinations were really illusions then. It wasn't something coming at me out of thin air, it was a tree branch on the ground or a leaf blowing in the wind or an object on my floor that I was scared shitless of because I was seeing It in a very alien way. Nowadays, when I OD pretty hard I am still terrified and have a lot of crazy ideas of what is in front of me, but it never moves and freaks me out like it used to. I had a realization recently that all of the creatures I used to hallucinate were always totally stationary, with the exceptions being times I was tweaking the fuck out and probably did .5 to 1 g within thirty minutes after being up for at least two days. Those hallucinations still haunt me, but when I do .5 g over the course of a night I am really just in terror because I'm remembering those very very heavy experiences and my body and brain are expecting something as truly as insane as that to happen even though I'm not even close to the requisite dose.

Obviously there's a kindling effect where once you've experienced psychosis in a traumatizing way it's easier and easier to get to that point with smaller doses and less sleep deprivation. But at the risk of sounding stupid there's also a reverse kindling effect where you realize from countless times of that sort of paranoia that nothing really ever happens for real when you're that fucked up, you just get so scared that you lose control over your brain and that's when things get insane. Nowadays I still get freaked the fuck out, but I am able to pinpoint exactly what I'm misinterpreting in my environment. "That's not an animal, that's a tree branch on the ground" "I'm feeling very scared, but I have been in this exact same place countless times before and nothing bad has ever happened to me except when I'm tweaking the fuck out, and even then it's always an audio visual freakout and I never die or get maimed just because I'm considering that possibility."
 
I find it a funny question, it's what they don't teach you and they agitate you lying. It's all an unfortunate arrest you are trying to hide....lie that it ruins the mind
 
I have been arrested several times due to alcohol :(

Fak.

30 days voluntarily sober so thats cool at least. My last arrest was that bad that it made me WANT to stop (rather than being told to or knowing i should stop).

Was drunk at a public park, I saw a guy from around town who just gives me the creeps. He's an older guy who dates 18 year old women. Every time I see him, he's got some different 18 year old girl. Couldn't hold my tongue, started talking shit tho I never physically approached him. He warned me to stop or he'd call the police, and I say "yeah ok pedo" and went back to my business. That was enough for him to call cops, which arrived in probably >5min. Well I was drunk, they decided to detain me, and 3 cops all grabbed me at once, which startled me. I fell into one of them, and they said "Hey, you pushed me. Now I'm charging you with felony assault on a police officer"

Thank god the judge threw that charge out due to body cam footage. It was enough to scare the shit out of me though. I'm still dealing with Obstruction of a peace officer and harassment and I violated my probation from a DUI a year ago, so yeah my life is absolutely a lot more difficult than it was 6 weeks ago.

You may be lucky so far, but really all it takes is one fuck up, and a life can change.
 
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Arrested yes, couple times but I was well ahead of both and they are exponged from the record --- ALMOST ARRESTED - for like 20 years straight

The stories there are endless. Public -- Im walking over to a buddies to tell him another buddy had killed himself when this guy in a truck drives around the block im walking on 3 damn times revving the engine. I give him the bird the third time. This idiot literally leaves his car at a red light and runs full speed up to me to fight -- and we do, obviously the ppl behind him at the light are honking and making calls.

Somehow they ended up threatening me with assault? Really dude parked his car at a red light hopped out and ran over to beat me? -- I did stand my ground and fight back but pitching me as the instigator had to be tough. Intimidation tactics
 
Sadly done more than come close, but arrested and convicted multiple times because of my addiction. Trying to avoid any and all police interactions at this point in life.

It's always sobering for me to realize how quickly things can change in this game we play.
 
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