hate being sober

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or is it that i love the warm feeling of intoxication even better? sometimes i find myself trying to stay sober because i have a day of work ahead of me but im always drawn back and sometimes ill show up to school/work pretty fucked up
i've even been to the point where i have stolen to get what i want, hurting many along the way...
 
We're not here because we love being sober... just recently I realised I'm in the early stages of addiction and that I need to kick it because the honeymoon period is over. I was reminiscing with a friend about this DNM (deep and meaningful) conversation about how we refuse to be get addicted, having seen the damage done to friends along the way.

I think I've known drugs for so long, so many good times along the way that I romanticised it in my head but you just need to remember that for every wonderful drug experience there are a lot more memories that have been lost had you not been doing drugs at the time. Drugs are fun, no doubt about it but there is more out there, even though it's hard to see right now, there is, trust me.
 
i dislike being sober as well. I mean, here i am, 20 yrs old drunk before 11am. I dont go to class fucked up anymore, and being comepletely geeked on adderall got me fired from my last job so..
 
i hate being sober too sometimes. i reminisce all the time. but the longer your in the game, the more bad memories start to out way the good ones. you however forget these bad memories and only remember the "good ones" the longer your sober and have your shit together. you just have to really try and remember how bad things got.
 
If I wasnt depressed back in the day over a few issues going on in my life, I would never have tried drugs, I know that for a fact. Alot of people choose to do drugs because of peer pressure & their friends are doing them. I never felt that way. Now I take hydrocodone for my back pain & opiates are the only thing I will take for my pain.

Before having the issues that got me so depressed & turning to drugs back when I was 18, life was extremely good to me. I was always smiling & laughing & having a blast w/o drugs. Life is fun sober but things gotta be going good for you to smile or it will just plain suck w/o drugs when you're depressed.
 
Been clean and sober for over 20 years, sobered up at 34, was so beat up I couldn't take it anymore, loss everything. I love my life today, even though I have issues, none of which a drink or drug will made better. I needed AA/NA and a lot of outside help, but I wouldn't trade my life, my wife, my kids, my bank account, with anyone else. Even though my life's not perfect, it's mine, and I want it.
 
drugs just make things worse, well in most cases, obviously your one of the millions that's tried drugs that hates being sober. Nowone that has tried various drugs actually like being sober, especially when we are addicted to something, most people experience an addiction to something at one point in their life to something, (you never mentioned if you are addicted to something, or recreationally use and hate being sober) however it's the people that usually become addicted to something and if they manage to get clean and get through the detox they realize how much better they feel and healthier they are sober, now more about you hating being sober, i'll give you an example of me in the past year, i have tried meth, acid, shrooms, ketamine, ecstasy, marijuana, alcohol, cocaine, ghb, and almost all the popular prescription meds, i've done some of them more than once, and some of them i obviously really liked, and hated being sober, but i learned from most peoples mistakes and never became addicted to any of them, because you don't realize how much trouble being sober saves you from, all those amazing feelings you get from drugs/alcohol are only temporary, and slowly start to damage your body, and it gets to the point where you have withdrawls, can't sleep, body aches, have alot of anxiety, depression, etc (that also strongly depends on what substance and how much) if you ask alot of addicts, that aren't in denial they will tell you they could back in time and be sober and never touch a drug, and the reason it's so hard for them to get sober is because, alot of them fear the nasty nasty nasty side effects and withdrawls from whatever it was that they liked, but the ones that get through it, they never felt so good being sober and clean. But hopefully you'll learn from others mistakes, and chose to stay sober or be responsible and not go down the sad painful many people go through in an attempt to escape sobriety.
 
I'm just going to copy my response from another thread as I think it fits well here too:

It's totally possible, even after years of using. It just takes time for you to realize it after your brain has grown accustomed to depending on substances for good feelings. For one thing, many drugs fuck with your seratonin (sp?) production by making it surge while you're high and fall while you're not. This naturally makes you feel like crap when you're sober. Thankfully this evens out after some time sober. It took me SIX months before I started feeling "normal" again and just as long before I started finding happiness in life without drugs.

I always remind people that IT JUST TAKES TIME. Your brain has to do a lot of readjusting and during that period it's totally normal to feel absolutely hopeless. The most important thing to do is keep pushing through until you reach that point where you're feeling good. It will come, don't worry.

Now, if you're someone who doesn't use every day of every week and feel like this, it probably has a lot to do with your brain's chemicals nonetheless. Drugs really fuck with your body whether you realize it or not. It's a matter of realizing this and accepting it as a consequence, at least IMO it is. Of course people can use and still maintain a level of mental health akin to any sober person but it can become difficult after extended use. It's a fine line to walk and a risk you take when you engage in drug use =/
 
Long story short: it takes a lot of time being sober to start feeling better [for most people] but it's worth it.

You sound like you're still using but you're beginning to recognize all of the cons associated with drug use. Are you ready to give them up so you won't feel like absolute crap anymore? I finally hit a similar point and realized that I couldn't carry on with the IV use, the game of spending hours scrounging up enough money and consequently wasting an entire day, withdrawing when unable to use, etc. I couldn't fathom being sober but knew I was going to die and/or lose everyone else I loved if I kept it up.

So, I did what I mention a lot here at BL and I sat down at a table with a piece of paper and a pen. I wrote down the pros and cons of using drugs. Obviously the "cons" list was waaaay longer. I knew I couldn't trust myself with staying sober as I'd even been in treatment for eleven months at one point and STILL failed. I knew I had to move out of my town and get away from all of the drugs. When I got to this new town, I was in deep withdrawal and stayed shut in for a good month. Lord, did I ever want some drugs but I didn't have a clue as to where to get any and I kept it that way.

If you're interested in cleaning up I highly recommend removing yourself from your current environment, whatever it takes (whether it's treatment, ridding yourself of all your drug buddies, deleting phone numbers, moving, whatever).

Anyway, I feel like I'm just rambling at this point but if you ever need anyone to talk to, you are more than welcome to message me.
 
today i was sober for most of the day, felt really slow cognitively though...
however, i felt really good around 4 oclock, even though i wasnt high i felt a natural
dopamine surge i think? idk it felt really really goood...i would definitely pay to feel it again
anyways im on klonopin alcohol and weed right now so i feel amazing...
 
like someone else said, it takes time. you have to stop using drugs for a while before you can start to enjoy being sober.
 
hey man if you haven't seen all the horrible things drugs do to your life then I don't know what to tell you. some people can deal with the bad shit that comes from using drugs and not mind... if you're one of those people then stop complaining on a website about it and go use, nobody is stopping you. like they told me many times in rehab "give being sober a chance first, and if it doesn't work out for you then go use". but you at least gotta give it a chance. how long have you been sober anyways? a few days? weeks? not even. you're high right now. you need to give it at least a few months for all the drugs that have altered your brain to wanting the drugs to correct themselves so they are working properly again. you may feel great right now, but those are the chemicals making you happy and that's artificial. what do you think is going to happen in 8 hours when the klonopin wears off? you'll be right back to where you were. not sure if there is anything called a 'natural dopamine surge', but is it possible that you just felt good because you weren't on drugs? think about that before you jump to the conclusion that you can only feel good on drugs. i'm sure you've felt good before in your younger years when you didn't do drugs yet... it is possible my friend, normal people do it everyday......
 
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