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Has E changed your personality?

this is a great thread. i'm excited that it's affected so many people so positively.

for me, it has given me a deeper understanding of self. i've realized that so much of the time we feel negatively towards others, it is due to our own insecurities. i look inward now first, and try to work things out inside myself before i react negatively towards anyone.

i've also seen how we're all connected in this world. a good vibe or a smile begets other good vibes and smiles, and the domino effect theoretically ensues. conversely, the negative shit is contagious as well and i choose to remove myself from certain situations now that drag me down, although one of my favorite things to do when i'm feeling a lot of love in my body (whether high or not) is to challenge the negative emotions of others. to try to show them a little of what i've found true about myself, and that a lot of times we CHOOSE to be upset or angry or jealous. the perfect example is people who feel 'poor' in america. it's all relative. you might not have a mercedes but you're still better off than 95% of this planet. choose to see it in a way that improves your overall efficacy and happiness.

peace.
 
PROS

* I no long look for something to make me happy, I just do it.
* I have learned how to avoid shady people since I first started.
* I never feel like I need to make anyone happy with me anymore.
* I lost most of my temper, it's still there, but I don't fly off nearly as bad as I used to.

CONS

*Many years of use has caught up with me mentally, and I'm slowly recovering, but I used a lot for almost ten years, so it'll take a littel while.
* I have issues with anxiety now, where I don't think I would have had them before.
* There are things, but they are personal, and involve emotions towards other people, and lets just leave it at, not very happy towards the human race in general for letting things get so bad, even when the solutions are already here right under our noses.
 
When i first started using E i was generally more upbeat, had a much more positive outlook on things, and was more relaxed.

However, with heavier use, i can sometimes become very irritable, get very anxious/worried and am just generally more miserable. My dad and friends have noticed a change in me, a negative one. :(. Time to moderate...

Peace
 
ecstasy for myself has allowed me to regain the ability to express myself without having to think about what im' saying.. before, i used to be able to speak directly from my heart.. and then for a while i found this impossible. Since the first time I popped, the expereicne was so life changing, not only sort term, but long term also. I'm not longer affraid of things i once was. It's opened me up a great deal, and allowed me to feel love and compassion for those i hadn't before.

in my eyes.. ecstasy is such a beautiful experience, and my psycological addiction is growing stronger :P i love it. i love everything about it!

it's heaven to me, and i dont know why i had to wait so long to understand the beauty of it..

*meh i'm babling now.. it's only cause i want a pill :(*
 
it's made me more confident I've found, and I can express myself much easier. I've not had too many negative effect myself.
 
I've only rolled 8 times or so... One roll we took these pills after a concert, and we'd been hanging out all week without shit to do and it had been really awkward... like we couldn't communcate with each other.

Then we dropped and afterwards i realized that everyone's the same inside, we'd all been feeling awkward, and there's never a reason to talk to someone like they're strange and foreign cause inside we're all the same. So now if you meet me I'll act and feel like I've known you always, but back then I'd be like 'stranger *hissssss*'
 
of course it has, i'm much more open minded than i was the firs time i rolled.

when the cadaverous mob saves it's doors for the dead man, you cannot leave
 
Such a fine lilne between great personal revalations and bad addiction. Obviously, BE CAREFUL....that persons freind mentioned on page 2 who has a problem...he will see it soon. I never had a prob with E but I read enough stuff on erowid and here to know my boundaries. Helps getting into E at age 28 as well.(im now 32) Still, at any age i can see that there becomes a habit of doing it all the time, every weekend. I have probs with pot and alcohol and other goodies, but Im trying ot keep this E thing to a minimum. Once every few months. E has changed a good part of me....but i was already very "e" ish to begin with...life of magic mushrooms was my thing....but E made me a bit more exciteda bout everything i already loved. E made me bond even harder with this music family around the US. i would be there without E, but E made it more...um...sinister, pleasurable, freaked out, intense, unifying, maginc, whatever. I love it! It makes me even more crazy (fun crazy0 in daily life sober. I can tell when a comarade in town uses or has used E. They are very flamboyant and comfortable with everything. They are friendlier.
I know very few people who are complete ETARDS, but those I do know I feel sorry for, I just hope their honeymoon ends soon and they ge ton course. Guess ya gotta jsut let everyone ride their own course.
 
there are lots of changes i've noticed. Things you might not even have realized unless your true friends tell you about it. Very, very, slight changes... but i didn't really think i had changed at all. Besides for the obvious "well i feel like a better person now, i understand, accept" cliche line.
 
Yes.

I was an uptight person befire i tryed E. I had NEVER done ANY DRUG before i tryed E (not even pot). Once i tryed E i became more carefree. I also became more exparamental with other drugs... :( none of witch i liked all to much.

It also changed me in a bad way as well. I over indulged in at at first...to much to fast......i abused it when i first started.....and now i have (physicaly) lasting scars to prove it!
 
E had definately changed my personality... I often get people telling me that Im not "fun" anymore and that Im too "serious"

Personally I haven't noticed it but since taking E on a regular basis I get more and more comments about a change in my personality from my friends who don't take drugs.
 
I haven't rolled in a couple weeks for various reasons and am turning back to the way I was before, very irratable and short tempered...I have to cus in every sentence! :X

Where is the love?
 
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