bobbyjones
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- Jul 13, 2013
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I was addicted to heroin. I used recreationally for maybe 6 months, starting once every couple of weeks. Toward the end of those 6 months I was using a few times a week, always snorting. I loved it, and I wanted to do it often, but I can't say I was addicted. I stopped coincidentally because I moved, and never thought about it again.
I picked it up by chance about 10 months later, snorting. I had a strong desire to use and did it more and more often, and eventually began shooting it. So then I was addicted for more than a year.
I moved again to get clean, and was on suboxone for three years, with 3 relapses (once each time I scaled off the suboxone. I finally checked into rehab, and I've been here for 18 months. I came off the suboxone in the first 2 months, and only happened to snort a 2mg sub twice about 5 months ago.
I've remained in rehab because I still think about using, and I don't believe I would not use if I left. I'm pretty determined to avoid becoming addicted again, but I'm afraid of the slippery slope if I use even just once.
I'm basically battling with accepting that I can never use again because I was an addict, but I also can't quite accept it.
So I was wondering if anyone here has found they were able to do it.
I picked it up by chance about 10 months later, snorting. I had a strong desire to use and did it more and more often, and eventually began shooting it. So then I was addicted for more than a year.
I moved again to get clean, and was on suboxone for three years, with 3 relapses (once each time I scaled off the suboxone. I finally checked into rehab, and I've been here for 18 months. I came off the suboxone in the first 2 months, and only happened to snort a 2mg sub twice about 5 months ago.
I've remained in rehab because I still think about using, and I don't believe I would not use if I left. I'm pretty determined to avoid becoming addicted again, but I'm afraid of the slippery slope if I use even just once.
I'm basically battling with accepting that I can never use again because I was an addict, but I also can't quite accept it.
So I was wondering if anyone here has found they were able to do it.