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Need Help Has anyone had a scare, is living with, or knows someone who died from cervical cancer?

Rainman1964

Rainman1964

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Friends,

I am facing a possible cervical cancer diagnosis. I am 58 and have only had 2 sexual partners in the past 20 years. I have HPV 16 which I read is a bad actor and all my pap smears over the last 20 years -- my entire life -- have come back normal. Over the past year, I thought I had ovarian cysts because of the constant cramping and pain I've been experiencing. I just thought it was from suddenly having more sex than I have ever had in my life with my boyfriend who is the first man I ever loved, but according to my doctor, it appears to be several warts. I can feel something is really wrong with me. I just recovered from Covid and quit smoking. I just need to lose 40 to 50 pounds a medication that was over prescribed to me cause a rapid weight gain.

I see the specialist in about 5 hours and I am nervous as hell. I have such a bad feeling. This is the cherry on top of my cake that is my life which includes ending a 28 year marriage, starting a new and very different relationship, meeting people who turned out to be so fucked up I feel that I'm living in high school, my financial aide was screwed up by my university and now to get my transcript so I can go to law school, I have to pay over $2,000. And the worst is that I have been unemployed since May. This is the first time I have not been getting call backs or anyone showing interest. I had two horrible experiences with two law firms I applied to where I was hired and then things fell through because of outrageous and unbelievable reasons. I have been affected by this. Then after applying for a job at the county courthouse, taking the 1.5 hour to apply online and get all the documents they need, giving my soul, being invited to take the exam which I passed with a high score, I finally got to interview with a 7-person panel, I am going on week 15 waiting for a call about a job. They say it could take up to a year. Studying for LSAT in distracting environmen, and hating my life.

And I still haven't filed my taxes because I don't have the $350 to pay my accountant to do them. My health insurance will stop when my divorce is final next month or October and the new insurance I am supposed to try and obtain as per my agreement with hubby will not have what I need for the surgery to burn off the warts, which I am confident will be an option. The pain is getting worse. And if it is cancer and I have to deal with treatment, etc. who knows what can ensue.

I decided to write my memoirs this morning and am saddened that this is all I wrote:

I hate everyone......I wish I were drunk.
The end.

I know. Quite profound wouldn't you say?

Can someone please talk to me -- get me off of this cliff....

Thanks for listening.

V
 
Rainman1964 said:
Friends,

I am facing a possible cervical cancer diagnosis. I am 58 and have only had 2 sexual partners in the past 20 years. I have HPV 16 which I read is a bad actor and all my pap smears over the last 20 years -- my entire life -- have come back normal. Over the past year, I thought I had ovarian cysts because of the constant cramping and pain I've been experiencing. I just thought it was from suddenly having more sex than I have ever had in my life with my boyfriend who is the first man I ever loved, but according to my doctor, it appears to be several warts. I can feel something is really wrong with me. I just recovered from Covid and quit smoking. I just need to lose 40 to 50 pounds a medication that was over prescribed to me cause a rapid weight gain.

I see the specialist in about 5 hours and I am nervous as hell. I have such a bad feeling. This is the cherry on top of my cake that is my life which includes ending a 28 year marriage, starting a new and very different relationship, meeting people who turned out to be so fucked up I feel that I'm living in high school, my financial aide was screwed up by my university and now to get my transcript so I can go to law school, I have to pay over $2,000. And the worst is that I have been unemployed since May. This is the first time I have not been getting call backs or anyone showing interest. I had two horrible experiences with two law firms I applied to where I was hired and then things fell through because of outrageous and unbelievable reasons. I have been affected by this. Then after applying for a job at the county courthouse, taking the 1.5 hour to apply online and get all the documents they need, giving my soul, being invited to take the exam which I passed with a high score, I finally got to interview with a 7-person panel, I am going on week 15 waiting for a call about a job. They say it could take up to a year. Studying for LSAT in distracting environmen, and hating my life.

And I still haven't filed my taxes because I don't have the $350 to pay my accountant to do them. My health insurance will stop when my divorce is final next month or October and the new insurance I am supposed to try and obtain as per my agreement with hubby will not have what I need for the surgery to burn off the warts, which I am confident will be an option. The pain is getting worse. And if it is cancer and I have to deal with treatment, etc. who knows what can ensue.

I decided to write my memoirs this morning and am saddened that this is all I wrote:

I hate everyone......I wish I were drunk.
The end.

I know. Quite profound wouldn't you say?

Can someone please talk to me -- get me off of this cliff....

Thanks for listening.

V
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Hi Rainman, I'm sorry I have only just read your post.
Anyway how are you doing today? Do you have any further news from the doctor?
 
the few women who i know that had it, got it taken care of really early and it wasn't bad at all

and i do know one person who waited even tho she knew and it screwed up her bladder pretty bad - so just get it taken care of asap and everything should be fine - i don't personally know anybody who died from it

but were you even diagnosed with cervical cancer or do you just think you might because of the HPV?
 
Hello,

I just had my ultra sound yesterday and waiting for the doctor to call me tomorrow to schedule surgery. The specialist said she needs to go in and remove the warts/lesion and then take a biopsy at the same time. She is a bit concerned with the cervix because she said she could not get through or see the opening, so I may have to get a hystorectomy, but leave the tubes for me to get my hormones, depending on the biopsy. i told her if there is any chance just take the uterus. I had my tubes tied in my 30s and I'm too old.

I made her laugh when I asked her what causes the cervix to close and she said getting older and I said it's closed for business.

I thinking positive and I really like the specialist. Thanks for being around.

V
 
Thanks so much for the update honey, I've been thinking of you and your situation. Thanks for giving us news that is marginally better than your previous post ❤️
 
UPDATE: My second scraping and in office biopsy came back, coupled with my ultrasound -- it's not good, says the doctor. Looks like hysterectomy and another biopsy to see if I have to do chemo or radiation.

I am shaking and having to drink at 2 p.m. in the afternoon. I wish I could stomach opiates right now. My head is spinning, and I am beyond angry at that doctor. I am Facebook friends with this doctor. Should I message him and let him know what is happening because of his mistake? They already took his medical license away. I'm going to get through this and then I'm kicking someone's ass!
 
my grandmother died at 51 of cervical cancer. its not to be fucked with. you clearly know that. i'm sorry this is happening to you. i have had a scare with it in my late 20s that luckily turned out to be a false alarm. that fucked me up enough so i can't imagine what you're going through.

they will have more answers once they have performed the next biopsy. i don't know if they have explained this to you but they will be looking for particular characteristics of the cancer that mean that certain types of chemo would be better/worse than others/whether its needed at all.

most important is that you follow drs orders and so everything you can to look after your health lifestyle wise.
 
chinup said:
my grandmother died at 51 of cervical cancer. its not to be fucked with. you clearly know that. i'm sorry this is happening to you. i have had a scare with it in my late 20s that luckily turned out to be a false alarm. that fucked me up enough so i can't imagine what you're going through.

they will have more answers once they have performed the next biopsy. i don't know if they have explained this to you but they will be looking for particular characteristics of the cancer that mean that certain types of chemo would be better/worse than others/whether its needed at all.

most important is that you follow drs orders and so everything you can to look after your health lifestyle wise.
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Thanks chinup. I'm 58. I really appreciate your advice. I will get through this. I will not accept anything less.

V
 
Rainman1964 said:
Friends,

I am facing a possible cervical cancer diagnosis. I am 58 and have only had 2 sexual partners in the past 20 years. I have HPV 16 which I read is a bad actor and all my pap smears over the last 20 years -- my entire life -- have come back normal. Over the past year, I thought I had ovarian cysts because of the constant cramping and pain I've been experiencing. I just thought it was from suddenly having more sex than I have ever had in my life with my boyfriend who is the first man I ever loved, but according to my doctor, it appears to be several warts. I can feel something is really wrong with me. I just recovered from Covid and quit smoking. I just need to lose 40 to 50 pounds a medication that was over prescribed to me cause a rapid weight gain.

I see the specialist in about 5 hours and I am nervous as hell. I have such a bad feeling. This is the cherry on top of my cake that is my life which includes ending a 28 year marriage, starting a new and very different relationship, meeting people who turned out to be so fucked up I feel that I'm living in high school, my financial aide was screwed up by my university and now to get my transcript so I can go to law school, I have to pay over $2,000. And the worst is that I have been unemployed since May. This is the first time I have not been getting call backs or anyone showing interest. I had two horrible experiences with two law firms I applied to where I was hired and then things fell through because of outrageous and unbelievable reasons. I have been affected by this. Then after applying for a job at the county courthouse, taking the 1.5 hour to apply online and get all the documents they need, giving my soul, being invited to take the exam which I passed with a high score, I finally got to interview with a 7-person panel, I am going on week 15 waiting for a call about a job. They say it could take up to a year. Studying for LSAT in distracting environmen, and hating my life.

And I still haven't filed my taxes because I don't have the $350 to pay my accountant to do them. My health insurance will stop when my divorce is final next month or October and the new insurance I am supposed to try and obtain as per my agreement with hubby will not have what I need for the surgery to burn off the warts, which I am confident will be an option. The pain is getting worse. And if it is cancer and I have to deal with treatment, etc. who knows what can ensue.

I decided to write my memoirs this morning and am saddened that this is all I wrote:

I hate everyone......I wish I were drunk.
The end.

I know. Quite profound wouldn't you say?

Can someone please talk to me -- get me off of this cliff....

Thanks for listening.

V
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Hey, hope you're doing better.

My ex-fiancee had advanced cervical dysplasia from HPV-16, but she apparently caught it just in time. It was removed with a cone biopsy. I had recurring throat infections for months when we were first together, so I have a high risk of developing oral cancer myself.

Just wanted to reach out and wish you the best.

❤️
 
Dreamflyer said:
Hey, hope you're doing better.

My ex-fiancee had advanced cervical dysplasia from HPV-16, but she apparently caught it just in time. It was removed with a cone biopsy. I had recurring throat infections for months when we were first together, so I have a high risk of developing oral cancer myself.

Just wanted to reach out and wish you the best.

❤️
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Hi Dreamflyer,

I really appreciate your well wishes. I am supposed to find out tomorrow the outcome of the biopsy they did via surgery last week. The waiting is killing me and my loved ones.

V
 
Rainman1964 said:
Hi Dreamflyer,

I really appreciate your well wishes. I am supposed to find out tomorrow the outcome of the biopsy they did via surgery last week. The waiting is killing me and my loved ones.

V
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Yeah, the anticipation is usually so much worse than the actual results. I always imagine the finding the worst things possible, then I can be relieved. That's just my own strange little coping mechanism.
 
I had a big scar on my back.Knifing in mass beating at a New Year's party.Just some inches aside and could be in wheelchair.Even don't know who the fucker done it.A lot of blood&didn't felt anything.A lot of alc&adrenaline
 
Nas47 said:
I had a big scar on my back.Knifing in mass beating at a New Year's party.Just some inches aside and could be in wheelchair.Even don't know who the fucker done it.A lot of blood&didn't felt anything.A lot of alc&adrenaline
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Gosh, Nas47. I hope you heal quickly. Feel better soon.

V
 
It's old scar my friend.The blade didn't go into the spinal cord....it's just tears some muscles and stop in the shoulder bone from behind(don't know the exact word)♥️☮️🙏
 
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