ok, edited. since now it's looking like that had nothing to do with it, so no point in giving idiots ideas... thanks for telling me, your 100% correct.
In regards to toxicity, be careful mixing ketamine with stims, and take a benzo with it if your going to mix those. That can be toxicity city, And the toxic avenger might come out every once in a while to light your cigarette, but when that happens, you know you might be in bad territory... or you just did a lot of k... one of those.
I've never been big on crack. tho every once in a while. i've only injected coke once... well a few times, but only one session, last month. It was ok... but not what it was supposed to be. i dont think decent blow is too easy too find these days. my boy keeps raving about this stuff from one of the dnm's, but thats what i shot and... not so special. But you wanna talk about compulsive...I miss a-pvp. it was so incredible for art creation. it gives both the inspirational muse and the drive to get it done immediately. a-php was fun, but completely lacked the effect on art creation.
I really like pcp honestly (and im so sorry about the loss of your husband, what you had written in the case study thread had me crying for an hour or more, and thinking about things in my life and my wife and her use, and what i must have put her thru with the couple big mistakes i've made myself. My heart goes out to you). It's not easy to find since i lost my contact. It's funny, all pcp dealers have a way about them, like Wow, that's what happens if i have a constant free supply of pcp?? Hello, Bing Bong, earth to dealer, earth to dealer.
3-meo-pcp aint no mxe, but it aint to shabby either. but the dose is very touchy. you just enter other realms in a way. things are different. i swear to god that i can throat sing like a mongol, and i love making music on it because everything sounds different and sounds connect differently in my mind. not like DiPT, but special. and it has spiritual realms to it. but if you get the dose wrong youll be a drooling blithering idiot and should be watched for safety.
I'm very sorry to hear about your pain. Have you tried baclofen(which oddly keep coming up on this forum these past few days)? Baclofen is what they give paralyzed people for spasticity. it's amazing at releiving muscle spasms. gabapentin is good too, but baclofen is the standard. If you havent tried it, ask your doctor about it. Tho i'd be surprised if it the doctors hadn't tried that yet. I'm a bit of a hermit too, but im working on that, it seems to have moved up my priority list these past few days. But it's not so easy to re-establish social connections just like that. I'm sorry to hear about your condition. My back pain definitely came back since i stopped opiates. i had surgery years ago for what was less a bulging or burst disk then it was an exploded and liquified disk. The surgery helped, but i was told to expect arthritis in my spine in my 30's (im 38 and that i would need another surgery. i think im about due, but im not exactly rushing over to the doctor. Im sure it doesnt compare to your condition, but pain can be so damaging to the totality of a person. i understand that much