ShroomySatori
Bluelighter
As soon as we die and begin to transmigrate,
At that very moment, when the visions of the intermediate state of
reality dawn,
And we roam [alone] in cyclic existence [driven] by deep-seated
pride,
May the Transcendent Lord Ratnasambhava draw us forward,
Leading us on the path of radiant light,
Which is the pristine cognition of sameness.
I am here for a couple of reasons. One, is that I don't know anyone in my life personally who uses the substances that I use. It's easy to make friends who smoke weed if you're a pothead, but I'm not in weed at all. I used to smoke it excessively for many years, but I decided to quit habitual use, and in fact use of the herb altogether. I am also here because I am a seeker of Enlightenment and a series of mushroom trips, at an important time of my life when I was transitioning from a boy to a man, altered the course of my life completely and also my experience of reality forever more.
I suffer from chronic pain in my spine. It is extremely severe and debilitating. I am mentioning this, because it impacts all aspects of my life. I also don't know anyone who suffers from chronic pain - and I'm a young adult, so I feel alone in this respect. This has led me to opiate use which I try to be accepting of, since for now it's a necessity. It's not something I would otherwise choose to use, but something that enables me to at least have some sort of positive quality of life. For me, it means the difference between being bedridden and being able to go about my life as a normal human being. Simply put, tolerance sucks though and so does the medical system.
I am a practitioner of yoga. I always was, but certain postures seem to help with my pain. I also suffer form panic attacks, but enough with the suffering already. I only mention it because I wouldn't be where I am if I hadn't been through it. I would probably have been more comfortable staying in the so-called real world, otherwise known as Maya or Illusion. There are benzos for that, and I'm not some melancholic emo dude, although my favourite colour is lack of it; black. I'm generally a very happy person and my life is full of love, albeit not too much "success" in the "real world" despite my "prestigious education." I single these words out because I do not believe that the realm of human existence as most people know it is in fact real. Cars, jobs, degrees, names, personal characteristics - anything at all that is a mental construct or label simply isn't real to me. Egos are rampant in this world and everything seems to be a competition, and this aspect of the psyche is manifested all over the planet in so many harmful ways. Life for me is a stream of conscious awareness - there is no past or future, only the present. Everywhere is exactly the same.
The drugs I'm actually interested in using apart from medications are psychedelics. Most notably tryptamines, but also a select few phenethylamines: 2c-e, 2c-t-2, and 2c-t-7. I enjoy mushrooms and especially acid a lot, but most of my trips these days are with other tryptamines like 4-aco-dmt. 4-ho-mipt, and 4-ho-met. I want to try them all, really, and I'm hear also if I have any questions before using a new substance (although erowid is pretty good for that).
Once again, all of this is an aspect of my life that I don't get to share with others. My friends drink and smoke weed, both of which I haven't touched in years, and I have learned to be quiet around them in regards to my tripping. As much as I'd like to open up to them about how intense and magical some of these experiences have been to me, they are brainwashed by government propaganda and believe I am "frying my brain" and will end up in a mental ward. Hey, if I can be accepting and non-judgemental towards their use of the point-blank liver poison and neurotoxin alcohol in excess, even as they pressure the use of it upon me despite my obvious discomfort, and how every time I see them they are stoned (for some apparent reason, sobriety apparently sucks), then why would they completely change their perception of myself as a person if they hear I explore the nature of my consciousness once a month?
I'm knowledgable when it comes to the science of physics, and modern technology in general. I like to write and express my thoughts. I jam the electric guitar.
Peace!
At that very moment, when the visions of the intermediate state of
reality dawn,
And we roam [alone] in cyclic existence [driven] by deep-seated
pride,
May the Transcendent Lord Ratnasambhava draw us forward,
Leading us on the path of radiant light,
Which is the pristine cognition of sameness.
I am here for a couple of reasons. One, is that I don't know anyone in my life personally who uses the substances that I use. It's easy to make friends who smoke weed if you're a pothead, but I'm not in weed at all. I used to smoke it excessively for many years, but I decided to quit habitual use, and in fact use of the herb altogether. I am also here because I am a seeker of Enlightenment and a series of mushroom trips, at an important time of my life when I was transitioning from a boy to a man, altered the course of my life completely and also my experience of reality forever more.
I suffer from chronic pain in my spine. It is extremely severe and debilitating. I am mentioning this, because it impacts all aspects of my life. I also don't know anyone who suffers from chronic pain - and I'm a young adult, so I feel alone in this respect. This has led me to opiate use which I try to be accepting of, since for now it's a necessity. It's not something I would otherwise choose to use, but something that enables me to at least have some sort of positive quality of life. For me, it means the difference between being bedridden and being able to go about my life as a normal human being. Simply put, tolerance sucks though and so does the medical system.
I am a practitioner of yoga. I always was, but certain postures seem to help with my pain. I also suffer form panic attacks, but enough with the suffering already. I only mention it because I wouldn't be where I am if I hadn't been through it. I would probably have been more comfortable staying in the so-called real world, otherwise known as Maya or Illusion. There are benzos for that, and I'm not some melancholic emo dude, although my favourite colour is lack of it; black. I'm generally a very happy person and my life is full of love, albeit not too much "success" in the "real world" despite my "prestigious education." I single these words out because I do not believe that the realm of human existence as most people know it is in fact real. Cars, jobs, degrees, names, personal characteristics - anything at all that is a mental construct or label simply isn't real to me. Egos are rampant in this world and everything seems to be a competition, and this aspect of the psyche is manifested all over the planet in so many harmful ways. Life for me is a stream of conscious awareness - there is no past or future, only the present. Everywhere is exactly the same.
The drugs I'm actually interested in using apart from medications are psychedelics. Most notably tryptamines, but also a select few phenethylamines: 2c-e, 2c-t-2, and 2c-t-7. I enjoy mushrooms and especially acid a lot, but most of my trips these days are with other tryptamines like 4-aco-dmt. 4-ho-mipt, and 4-ho-met. I want to try them all, really, and I'm hear also if I have any questions before using a new substance (although erowid is pretty good for that).
Once again, all of this is an aspect of my life that I don't get to share with others. My friends drink and smoke weed, both of which I haven't touched in years, and I have learned to be quiet around them in regards to my tripping. As much as I'd like to open up to them about how intense and magical some of these experiences have been to me, they are brainwashed by government propaganda and believe I am "frying my brain" and will end up in a mental ward. Hey, if I can be accepting and non-judgemental towards their use of the point-blank liver poison and neurotoxin alcohol in excess, even as they pressure the use of it upon me despite my obvious discomfort, and how every time I see them they are stoned (for some apparent reason, sobriety apparently sucks), then why would they completely change their perception of myself as a person if they hear I explore the nature of my consciousness once a month?
I'm knowledgable when it comes to the science of physics, and modern technology in general. I like to write and express my thoughts. I jam the electric guitar.
Peace!
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