happy

[atri]

i cant control my emotions
almost like theres too many thoughts to think
cant control the way i feel
my actions or deeds
i use them as a distraction
to pull me away from the pain
the pills the drink the other things
that let me escape from myself
they dont fix the problems of anger and fear
but they help me enjoy myself
i dont consider it a neccessity
but more of a vacation
from all the things troubling me
i dont depend on them to get me through the day
or even the month or the week
its just that now and then i feel the need
to just get me through me

 

[lilygirl]

see, that's exactly the problem with taking drugs, if you get used to a little vacation from reality every once and awhile than you won't deal with reality. You can't make your current situation better if you have breaks...
sorry, rant. good poem, i enjoyed reading it
~lil
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"you will get this chance but once, don't let simple shit get you down"
therapy is expensive, poppin bubble wrap is cheap. you decide.
sn~ sparkleylily