Happy New Year!

dude, its NYE and I am home and just relaxing. sure, there may be some weed being smoked, but I am SURE I will remember this NYE and not have nodded off way before midnight like I have for the last 3 or so years. man, I had a GF too, and she wasnt a user, but would let me just sit there and NOD OFF as the clock turns. its damn sad I was such a shit boyfriend; I feel so bad for the girl but she was NOT FOR ME, which is why I had to leave her once going sober; she reminded me too much of bad times.. and also she knew the junkie me, which was not a good me. so getting away worked great and keeps me sober.

sobriety, well, to a degree (still weed and bupe), who would have thought I'd be so happy on NYE just to sit here in bed and relax. actually remembering and knowing what I am doing and watching BBALL. no girl crying, no me nodding off, w/ a needle next to me, as I hear sniffles from the girl, etc. I was a TRUE PIECE OF SHIT! I am just fucking THANKFUL GOD. truly thankful for what has come.

I hope to stay in this position as long as possible.

 

Hi there mate, how's things? Good to hear your staying pretty much sober; that's something I'm struggling with tbh.

Anyways, no need to feel guilt about a relationship that didn't work out; millions have been there, and I include myself.

Btw happy '14 to you!

 

You too, man.

dude, I am SHOCKED how confident I am in my sobriety; using is NOT even something I think of. I cant imagine doing/being what I once did/who I once was; it's just NOT ME anymore.

like I said originally, anyone can say I still use cuz of my love for the green, which always keeps me calm, relaxed and ready to sleep at night. cant hate on that. also being lowering my bupe dosage ahead of the Dr., so it shows I want OFF PILLS for GOOD if/when possible. then again, I'd rather still on this bupe for $15/mo than blow the $100+ a day I once was. man, it just blows my mind when I think of that cash. even today I went out and bought new headphones and than ran me $65 and I was thinking of how much money that was and was thinking twice if I should bought; right away I thought of how much dope I used to buy and BOOM.. headphones were ready to rock minutes from then. ha.