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Happy (american) Thanksgiving!

What's everyone thankful for??

Yesterday I was having ridiculous cravings and I almost fucked up and ruined 16 days sober, but I did an ol emergency landing and took some Kratom instead. It worked , thankful for my sobriety and that I didn't fuck up yesterday.
 
This might be TMI, but I am thankful that the tests from my recent surgery for Breast cancer showed the tumor was small, early, hadn't spread and the 10 year survival rate is 90%. I am deeply grateful.
 
gotit4cheap said:
What's everyone thankful for??

Yesterday I was having ridiculous cravings and I almost fucked up and ruined 16 days sober, but I did an ol emergency landing and took some Kratom instead. It worked , thankful for my sobriety and that I didn't fuck up yesterday.
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That is awesome man, truly a blessing.

Tinker55 said:
This might be TMI, but I am thankful that the tests from my recent surgery for Breast cancer showed the tumor was small, early, hadn't spread and the 10 year survival rate is 90%. I am deeply grateful.
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This is incredible. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Today is a shitty day for me. This is the fifth anniversary of when I broke up with my ex. She stole a prescription for adderal from a neighbor, convinced me it was a vitamin which led me to take one. It triggered my panic disorder. I ended up having a massive panic attack and I thought I was dying and needed to go to the hospital but she just went on lying to me till finally my brother got her to tell the truth. I told her we were through and that we were just going to pretend to be a happy family for the sake of my grandmother's thanksgiving dinner.The cops showed up at my house on thanksgiving night because the neighbor reported it. I was scared they would take her to jail and take away my son. A week later she realized I was serious about giving her a month to pack up and get out and decided instead of doing the right thing to call the cops on me get me kicked out of my house and then take my child in the middle of the night. I have seen him exactly three times since...each time for one day. I dreamed about it last night and I woke up at 3am crying. That same old hollow feeling of despair overcame me. You know what I mean, like life being so pointless and trivial. I really wanted a shot just to numb it all away, but instead I got up and started cooking again. I am thankful that I have the opportunity to cook for my family and I will be surrounded with the people I love because if I wasn't I don't know what I would do, and I probably would have end up using. I do have one thing I have learned from this...there is no pain in ones heart that cannot be overcome by reaching out to those that care about you. Gather those that love you around you in times of despair and hopelessness because they can at least lend you a little hope.
 
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I am thankful for my family. They have really stuck by me through the bad times. Its so sweet now that things are better.


I am not thankful for the Philadelphia Eagles. God damn they fucking suck.
 
gotit4cheap said:
What's everyone thankful for??

Yesterday I was having ridiculous cravings and I almost fucked up and ruined 16 days sober, but I did an ol emergency landing and took some Kratom instead. It worked , thankful for my sobriety and that I didn't fuck up yesterday.
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I'm proud of you man! That's great work. :)

Today I'm thankful for my sobriety from opiates, suboxone, heroin, needles, meth, all that horrible shit. In two days I'll have 1 year and 1 month. %)
 
Captain.Heroin said:
I'm proud of you man! That's great work. :)

Today I'm thankful for my sobriety from opiates, suboxone, heroin, needles, meth, all that horrible shit. In two days I'll have 1 year and 1 month. %)
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congrats CH. That is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your life. The needle itself is an addiction unto itself. Did you quit the suboxone after the opiates?
 
Crimson-right now I am not feeling thankful for the Eagles...what the fuck was that?

I was having a little bit of a tough day, but tried to focus on the good stuff.

Tinker55: I'm glad the tumor hasn't spread and something can be done. The very best to all BLrs (and greenlighters) - we all have a lot to be thankful for.
 
Stargazer I was a little salty about the Eagles getting blown out. I live and die by my football teams ;)

Hope everyone had a safe day. I am getting ready to attend a potluck thanksgiving celebration I am invited too. Pretty excited.
 
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I was feeling utterly upset by the Eagles.....I thought you meant cause it was such a bad game lol. Hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving celebration!!

I am thankful that I wasn't in jail this year, as I was last year.:\:)
 
Stargazer said:
I was feeling utterly upset by the Eagles.....I thought you meant cause it was such a bad game lol. Hope you enjoyed your Thanksgiving celebration!!

I am thankful that I wasn't in jail this year, as I was last year.:\:)
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I was in rehab last year for thanksgiving....surprisingly enough it wasn't the first thanksgiving I was in rehab....I actually went from jail to rehab this time which was weird. If they released me from jail and I could leave rehab anytime I wanted, why the hell did I have to be handcuffed in the back of a van on the way over there....no windows either. It was a boring ride. I wanted to talk to the cop but he told me to shutup.
 
Manboy...Lol!! I hear that loud and clear! Some of the cops, if you so much as say "these shackles are killing me"...will scream "SHUT YOUR SMART MOUTH"...wtf? Last Thanksgiving (and today actually) I was in a little cell, with a green tarp over the window (guys were across the way)....I still was looking out to keep faith there still was an outside.

I went straight to rehab too....but it was court-ordered. That was kind of crazy they hand-cuffed you when you were truly released. Hey, not only are we done with jail, we are done the nightmare, and constant fear of probation! That is sure something to be thankful for....sweet Jesus. That was tough.

What a contrast this year is from last....phew. Thank you God.
 
True that stargazer. Now instead of waving at cops as I drive by I can go back to flipping them off, and yelling "pig" out my window. (I live in clermont fl, we have a huge police force and there really isn't any crime....they just voted to build a new police station instead of updating the playing fields at minnehaha park....basically if you go to the gas station down the road from my house around midnight there are like five or six cops sitting in there drinking coffee and chatting (while collecting a paycheck) These are also the cops that tore apart my car to find nonexistent drugs and actually broke my center console, all the while being rude to me because I dared to have a drug related conviction on my record...he kept saying "I know its in here why don't you just tell me where it is and we can stop playing these damn games." I replied "by your portly bearing officer, it looks like you could use some physical activity" His partner laughed...) Ugh I am going on a tangent about small time cops and being a reformed addict and never truly being able to escape the moniker because your record is truly never wiped clean.

Always remember to express your 16th amendment right, and your 1st amendment right. You don't deserve to get searched all the time. If they arrest you for speaking your mind you can sue and win every single time. (granted you aren't doing something wrong)
 
I am laughing so hard right now....fucking cops...taking me down when I'm cooperating. On delay they started screaming "get on the fucking ground...get on the fucking ground!!!!" (when they had just been standing there bullshitting with eachother a second before) Uh...I've been standing here, still, for five mins...when I heard them scream I turned to look in their direction and I was slammed down face first..funny now...not so funny when it happened.

I've had some experience w Florida cops too. Oh yeah. They're all a regular riot.
 
If they weren't so deadly serious and willing to use extreme force with extreme prejudice I would find them quite a bit more comical.
 
manboychef said:
congrats CH. That is one of the hardest things you will ever do in your life. The needle itself is an addiction unto itself. Did you quit the suboxone after the opiates?
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yes, I had multiple years of just-suboxone (or almost entirely; only single days where I would use heroin once or twice). The second I went back on Suboxone, I never had a regular heroin habit again.
 
Manboy, I think its ridiculous. To the point of comical. Why on earth would anyone start randomly screaming as if omething just happened that didn't'? I was literally waiting for them to get done talking...and out of nowhere they beat the shit out of me. I kept asking "Why are you doing this to me?!".....At the time, it was horrific. Very scary, not to mention painful.

I know better than to move w cops...they treated me like I was resisting arrest. I just don't understand.
 
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