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Had to put my dog down.

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happyginny

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I have suffered from depression for over 30 years. I am in therapy, on medication. Last week my 8 year old Boston Terrier became ill. Wouldn't eat, barely drank. The vet thought maybe an infection of some type and gave me antibiotics. She started having seizures, could not sit or stand up. Took her to the emergency vet and they put her to sleep for me.

I love that dog. I feel so empty inside, cold and barren. I have lost pets in the past, none of them crushed me like this. I held her while they administered the injection. Kissing her and telling her that it was ok to go. I know she is better off. I feel like I lost part of me.
 
hey happyginny... Its time to focus on the positive memories that you shared with your dog. The initial pain your feeling is very normal, and its ok to feel that way. In time things will look up, for now maybe try getting out of the house or getting some exercise, seeing friends etc.

Part of you is not lost, but perhaps a chapter of your life is coming to an end; but there is a new one, and you can create whatever memories you choose.

The future is looking bright.
 
I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. Your pets are a part of your family and the last time I had to put my dog down, I swore I would never go through this again. He was my dog for 15 years and it was a struggle knowing he was sick but had to be put down. It's just too hard to say goodbye. My family has always had dogs so when I had to put "my baby" to sleep, naturally the boys went out and got another dog. That's not always a good solution. Since I am the mom here, whenever he needs a trip to the vet, meds or a bath, etc it falls back on me. I know what you mean though when you say she's a part of you. She always will be but it's good she's not suffering anymore. Hugs: <3
 
She slept with every night since I got her. Am having trouble sleeping tonight. Thank you for the kind words everyone.
 
happyginny :( The darkness you speak of is something I think of at times when holding my pets. It's something I cannot even imagine feeling. She is so lucky to have left this world in your loving arms and to have lived her life with your love. I am so sorry that she had to leave here before you. That is always the pain of an animal :(. They bring us so much joy and happiness over their lifespan but it can never outlive us and so we always have to watch them leave us after we have formed such an amazingly strong connection.

A lot of people feel the death of a pet can sometimes be more serious for a person than the death of a relative. Your dog is something that is yours a little living creature that is there only to please and comfort you. It's their only purpose is to make you happy. Human relationships are much more difficult and much more guarded. You can say anything to a dog and act any way you want around you dog. She won't judge you, infact she might even try to join in on whatever goofy shenanigan you're doing.

Post us some pictures of your beautiful girl and know that we're here for you <3. I know the love and bond an animals life can bring to a human.
 
There is nothing like the love of an animal. The bond is so strong and the relationship so deep. It is indeed a terrible loneliness when they go. Like Stardust said, it is a cruel truth that we will almost always outlast them. I have had to have so many of my pets put down in my long life. It doesn't get any easier. The best thing that you can do is cry, cry, cry. Letting it all out naturally honors the place this little being had in your life. A lot of people will tell you to get another pet to heal. I think that giving yourself time to grieve naturally is the best way through the process. I hope you will post some pictures if you have them.<3
 
This thread is making me teary eyed. I'm so sorry for the loss of your dear dog, ginny. Similar to what stardust said, losing a pet for me has been often times harder than losing a relative. A pet's love is so unconditional and so pure and that makes things extremely difficult when it's time to say goodbye to them. If you have any other pets, hug them tight as they are grieving as well but in a different way. Reach out to friends and family now as well. Simply talking about all your memories you had with her can be a source of relief. And yes, please do post photos and tell us the name of your precious little girl.

This is one of the hardest things we have to deal with in life and my heart goes out to you. <3
 
Yep, our pets truly become part of our family, and I think that's so especially true of dogs because of their absolute loyalty and devotion to you come what may, they're impossible not to love and become such a huge part of our daily lives for so long, sometimes the only devoted, dependable companionship there is that it can only be a huge loss when we say good bye to them. Those who've never owned a dog don't always get just how great a loss it is IME. Sorry it's such a sad day for you Ginny. <3
 
My dearest sympathy for you & your beloved dog <3
Letting go of a pet is such a heartbreaking ordeal.
But unfortunately, this is an unavoidable part of life.
May the memories of your dog's life flourish and bring you happiness in the years to come <3
 
I've just lost a German Shepherd in October. When i was going through a depressive part in my life, She was there. More than anyone. She had horrid Hip-Dyplshia. I had to put her down. her collar still hangs on the my rear view mirror in my truck. In fact i had her put to sleep in my truck because thats where she was most comfortable because she always rode with me everywhere i went. That was the first time i cried in 8 years. Every time i think of her i think of happy moments. How happy she was when she was alive. Always her wagging her tail. You will feel better trust me. What got me through the tough time was the fact every time i thought of her I always remembered how happy she was. I know it's hard to do but every time you think of your dog think of how happy it was. In time you'll feel better.
 
I tried to put her picture on here, but could not figure out how to do it. The messed up thing is that I have cancer and thought I would be leaving her. I never dreamed she would leave me.
 
I have read posts on the dark side for a while now. As I said, I have cancer, suffered from depression even before my diagnosis. Kinsey was there every day, good or bad. I had to put down a dog about 9 years ago, she was 12. I think the factor of my illness makes it worse this time. Also the way she went was just so ugly. The seizures were brutal to watch, knowing I could do nothing to help her.

I know it is just so raw right now and that the pain will lessen. Thank you everyone who posted to me.
 
Image needs to be hosted somewhere on the net first, www.imgur.com is quick and painless. It will give you the URL of your uploaded pic already tagged for BBCode that you can just cut'n'paste into your post like this:

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Very last button in the bottom right corner here in the post reply box lets you enter a plain URL to be IMG tagged automatically for you.

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I have to say that I just had the first smile and laugh since I had to put Kinsey down. I was reading some posts in other forums and came across one where someone posted that his DOG was on meds, and smoking weed, etc. I guess he didn't want to use the usual SWIM. I just kept thinking of Kinsey trying to snort some shit or smoke a bowl. Gave me quite a visual. She was a bit of a lazy gal, so the weed felt right for her. Thank you very much to the poster of that thread and all of the funny replies. I needed that.
 
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