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Anxiety had the worst anxiety attack I've had in a while

spypilot

spypilot

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I was walking to my local record store and walked through my local park to get there and I saw somebody who lets say didn't play a good role in my life and was one of the reasons I had started using. the second I saw her I ran the other way and I nearly fell twice, once I was out of her sight I took the lorazepam I had in my pocket and I calmed down a bit
this is the 2nd time this month I've seen her, what do I do to make sure I don't get anxiety when I see her I just don't know what to do and I'm almost out of Ativan to calm myself down from these attacks, shits just been rough
 
What are you afraid will happen when you see her? Is she a total psycho that will become physically abusive upon sight? If so, then you need to involve the police or other suitable professionals. If not, then you're probably just obsessing about things that may have happened in the past and are frightened that they may continue.

Anxiety is a bitch, and I've suffered from it most of my life without professional help (though I have self medicated a LOT).

The thing about anxiety is that it comes from within yourself. Realising this is your power. Is the threat real, or just perceived? perceived threats can be overcome by not giving into them.

Admittedly, It's easier said than done, but you have control over perceived threats. Also, bear in mind that people change. Although you're still apprehensive about seeing this person, they might not give it a second thought.

Anxiety is simply beating yourself up over something that in most cases will not happen. Reaching for the benzos everytime is not really helping, it's just a chemical crutch that prevents recovery.

You need to find it within yourself to gain confidence and face these situations head on. Nobody (and no substance) can do this for you.

It's hard to explain what I mean, but a change of mental attitude is required for your own peace of mind.

As I said, it's hard, but it CAN be done.

All the best mate...
 
agoraphobe said:
Something or someone that triggering can only be treated with therapy or a immediately activating drug like a benzo or alcohol.

Avoid the individual as best you can.
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i try
its been a bit hard trying to get a real lorazepam perscription or even any perscription for a benzodiazepine
 
agoraphobe said:
Something or someone that triggering can only be treated with therapy or a immediately activating drug like a benzo or alcohol.

Avoid the individual as best you can.
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Oh okay. Seek therapy or your only other options are to use alcohol or use benzos? That's the "harm reduction" advice that you just gave to a 15 year old
 
Electrum1 said:
Oh okay. Seek therapy or your only other options are to use alcohol or use benzos? That's the "harm reduction" advice that you just gave to a 15 year old
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They weren't asking about harm reduction, they were asking how to cope with a specific individual that provokes anxiety attacks.

Avoid the person, therapy or a substance to mask the reaction are the only three solutions I can think off. Offer something substantive instead of picking fights with me.
 
agoraphobe said:
They weren't asking about harm reduction, they were asking how to cope with a specific individual that provokes anxiety attacks.
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Well this is a harm reduction forum, and yeah avoiding the person is the clear choice/solution, but besides therapy, you immediately suggested there were only a couple other options, which were to start using alcohol or benzos to cope with the specific individual that provokes anxiety attacks, which in my opinion is fucked up advice for you to give to a 15 year old and is absolutely not harm reduction

agoraphobe said:
Avoid the person, therapy or a substance to mask the reaction are the only three solutions I can think off. Offer something substantive instead of picking fights with me.
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Speaking of Harm reduction for a 15 year old, ammonia smelling salts. I will forever tout the horn of those, you can get them cheap at any pharmacy and they basically reset your brain a little via a short quick pain signal through the smell. Its amazing, can only reccomend to try that before grabbing to actual meds.
 
If it's an ongoing problem then I'd definitely recommend looking into CBT. Yeah, you have to put a bit of work in and practice but you don't want to have to rely on drugs for the rest of your life, do you? Think of the cash it will save you if nothing else. Taking time to develop coping strategies is definitely the winner in the long game.
 
Electrum1 said:
fucked up advice for you to give to a 15 year old and is absolutely not harm reduction
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I disagree except for the 15 year old part. I don't remember seeing age stated anywhere. I wouldn't have suggested alcohol to a minor. Changes the calculation obviously.

Technically still harm reduction because I'm reducing the harm associated with the toxic individual they keep unfortunately encountering.
 
You may always have anxiety until you get to core reason that triggers it. I used to be terribly paranoid associated mental illness. I finally realized it was all in my head...so I set about to test my theory. I intentionally put myself in stressful situations. Lo and behold, I was right.. Overtime I realized not only was I a member or participant of this world, I had every right to be here, just like every other living thing. Understanding my role here in life gave me the freedom to do and act accordingly. Every living being on this world is meant to be here, with the same rights and privileges as every other.

I humbly submit a video of The Beatles song A Day in the Life. I full explanation about the meaning and lyrics of the song.
Life is really and truly what you make of it. You are in control, you always have been and you always will be. The anxiety you feel is of your own making.


 
BadBoy377 said:
I think using alcohol to deal with anxiety is not the best idea.

I think the OP is making a solid choice avoiding it.

Just my opinion.
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yeah I was a shitty drunk for a while
I had a phase where I stole hand sanitizer from school and mixed it with the robitussin I stole from cvs to make this shitty death cocktail that I wouldnt wish on anybody to have to drink like that shit sucked
good thing Im not doing that anymore
 
spypilot said:
yeah I was a shitty drunk for a while
I had a phase where I stole hand sanitizer from school and mixed it with the robitussin I stole from cvs to make this shitty death cocktail that I wouldnt wish on anybody to have to drink like that shit sucked
good thing Im not doing that anymore
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Fucks sake.

Aye, that's not a good move. Still we all do stupid stuff from time to time. You lived to tell the tale.
 
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