Misc Had a TERRiBLE reaction to an antipsychotic, can I get insight?

[Laymasterflex]

So this happened about a week ago. I am on 40 mg vilazadone (SSRI) adderall 30 mg 2x daily gabapentin 800 mg 4x and synthroid. My anxiety was getting worse and my doctor wouldn't prescribe me benzos because of how addictive they are (he finally prescribed klonopin after this). So he prescribed perphenazine (typical anti psychotic) 4m but the pharmacy only had the 8 mg tabs the I cut one in half and took it. For the first few hours I felt calm, but I suddenly got severely agitated and hypersensitive to all the little sounds and lights around me. I almost punched my 16 year old brother for no reason. My anxiety skyrocketed thru the roof and a felt like I had seratonin syndrome. I was sweating everywhere and later on that night I became kinda delusional. I felt like an Alzheimer's patient where I could think. I wanted to go to the hospital but my dad said it was no big deal. It calmed down I finally slept, but when I woke up I felt different . My memory concentration and thought processes are all messed up. I was having minor visual and auditory hallucinations, although most of those have gone down. Everyone I've talked to says I'm fine, but I feel completely different. Later on that week a smoked sme pot and it triggered a flashback to that and I ended up in the ER where they said I'm fine. I do have a thyroid disorder and I just got the results of my blood test today and my thryroid is under active. I am I hypochondriac, I have been eating like shit and not excersising, but this was so student so I feel like it was something more serious. I feel like I have permenant brain damage.

 

[rickolasnice]

Welcome to bluelight

Maybe you suffered from a paradoxical reaction?

The rest sounds psychosomatic.. You don't have permanent brain damage and the only reason you feel different is because you are telling yourself you do. Relax, you're fine

 

[King-Anubis]

Honestly, it sounds like the normal effects of antipsychotics. They are fucking with you're brain chemistry after all. The feelings that your mind has changed, that you can't think properly, the loss of concentration and memory and minor hallucinations are all symptoms I experienced when I first started on quetiapine. Mine continued for months and I still have a poor concentration and memory. Keep on the drugs and it'll pass (As they say, it gets worse before it gets worse) - also it's probably a good idea if you avoid pot for awhile - not only because it's terrible for anxiety, but your brain has enough going on chemically without introducing more drugs to mess with it.

And yeah, you don't have permanent brain damage - although it does feel like that when you start these drugs. Just know that that's a sign they're working.