Haha sounds exactly like me dude. Getting drunk 2-3 times a month IF that, and smoking stoges only at that time... Smoking about 5-6 blunts a day, every day. I got to a point where I was coughing up blood in the morning, and I wouldn't cough up brown it would be jet black. That really scared me man, I am only 23 and I had done that amount of damage was just mind blowing. I was stupid so I continued, and one day I smoked some bubba earwax and I got so fucking high I thought I was going to die. After that I quit for 8-10 months, and recently just picked up smoking. Give yourself a break, and kick the blunts. I know it's tough, I LOVED blunts so much. I've smoked a few since only because I was rolling.. I can't roll right if I don't have blunts lol. But ferreal, think about the damage you are doing to your body. The worst way to die is not being able to breathe. If you are the kind of person that needs to see something in order to believe it, take that man. Slow down.