TheDeceased
Ex-Bluelighter
There's a part of me that is dormant
Maybe all of me, it's hard to know
But I know there's something missing
Looking back at past selves depresses me
An unwanted reminder of when I had faith
Before everything fell apart and my neighbours became enemies
The opposite of blissful ignorance is an overdose of consciousness
And once all meaning is lost, how can you convince yourself otherwise?
I want my fucking innocence back but I'll settle for someone elses
I need to be able to relax and to see wonder in little things
I don't want to be a child I just want to be alive
Like you
But maybe that's not possible
Could be something neurological
The drink and drugs didn't add any cells, that's for sure
Maybe I'm permanently jaded
I could always be like this, lost in the dark
And though your light shines bright enough for both of us
I feel guilty for basking in it's glow
Like some wretched creature
Sucking the life from a thing of immense beauty
You're an angel and I'm the cement around your feet
We're like the beauty and the beast
Except he turned back into a man
That part always bothered me
Like it was important
He had to be a man
A handsome knight in bright shining armour
But that's what you deserve
Rather than an addict
A burnt candle
A parasite
A nothing
Maybe all of me, it's hard to know
But I know there's something missing
Looking back at past selves depresses me
An unwanted reminder of when I had faith
Before everything fell apart and my neighbours became enemies
The opposite of blissful ignorance is an overdose of consciousness
And once all meaning is lost, how can you convince yourself otherwise?
I want my fucking innocence back but I'll settle for someone elses
I need to be able to relax and to see wonder in little things
I don't want to be a child I just want to be alive
Like you
But maybe that's not possible
Could be something neurological
The drink and drugs didn't add any cells, that's for sure
Maybe I'm permanently jaded
I could always be like this, lost in the dark
And though your light shines bright enough for both of us
I feel guilty for basking in it's glow
Like some wretched creature
Sucking the life from a thing of immense beauty
You're an angel and I'm the cement around your feet
We're like the beauty and the beast
Except he turned back into a man
That part always bothered me
Like it was important
He had to be a man
A handsome knight in bright shining armour
But that's what you deserve
Rather than an addict
A burnt candle
A parasite
A nothing
