grrrrrrrrr

[mashead testing]

Everywhere I look
teasing reminders I see
im not a part of anything
not even my family
Pretend it doesnt affect me
rewrite the story, if I could
to late now, just a thought
that dimmers away
Its ok to say once,
its ok to accept twice
but three time, no more
I dont want this
Block out voices,
distance from self
turn off, forget until
memories hurt
It never looks good forwards
backwards always seemed so sweet
was it ever that good in reality
thoughts fall on my feet

 

[E-girl]

, forget until
memories hurt
i often feel like i'm not really a part of anything anymore either... like my friends are either all just aquaintances, or have bigger and better things in their life than me... and like my family is disappointed in me, or proud of me for what they see, although it is not always the truth. i feel like the only real person i have, is myself. and that's not enough. and i drown myself in happy memories, times of high school when i had a ton of friends and when things in my life weren't so complicated. memories, even the happy ones, sometimes hurt.

 

[mashead testing]

Woah you sure hit the nail on the head there!