Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
No one would understand why Stephanie would continually blame herself, she knew, and no matter how much explaining to Trish or Shanea, no one would listen and really hear the words she said, and have had the effect she meant the words to have. This is my fault. I know it is. I would rather die than give into a lie or a delusion that this isn't my fault. Fuck you for telling me to forgive myself. There is no forgiveness. Fuck Jesus. Fuck your way of thinking. I will lash out at you, verbally, to no effect. If you try to drag me from the squalor I shouldn't shield myself from,
I WILL BEAT YOU
I WILL BEAT YOU
