youstoopidbitch
Greenlighter
I happened to stumble upon Bluelight while conducting a bit of personal research yesterday evening. After spending quite some time wandering around the forums, I decided to join the fun. (BECAUSE LEARNING IS FUN, DAMMIT!)
A little bit about myself, in case you're interested:
Let's start at the shallow end...
I am from the upper midwest of the USA, and live with my SO and our four fur children.
I consider myself charmingly profane.
I like (most) music...except polka.
I prefer movies over television - the stranger/grittier the film, the better.
Now, let's get a little deeper...
I began experimenting with various substances around the age of twelve for (mostly) the wrong reasons. (NOTE: I don't recommend this.) I wanted to run...I wanted to rebel...I wanted to belong somewhere...I wanted to know what all the fuss was about. I spent most of my teenage years in a blur of self-hatred and poor decisions. I accepted, ingested, and participated in many things I did not have the wherewithal to cope with, or even begin to understand...and I didn't care. My attitude was generally, "will it fuck me up? okay!" and down the hatch it went. I didn't necessarily want to die, but I didn't expect (or intend) to live very long, either. There were a lot of unknowns - and zero foresight.
This changed right around the time I graduated high school - I don't remember most of that summer, and lost many friends to overdoses...it shook my world up, and caused me to make even more irresponsible decisions (if that's even possible). When the smoke cleared (pun very much intended) I was in a pile of emotional/spiritual wreckage, and had no idea where or who I was. I took a hiatus from EVERYTHING and focused on myself for a while, before wading back into the world of mind-alteration several years later. This time, I am taking the necessary steps to educate myself. It has truly changed my life for the better.
As for right now...
I fully intend to LIVE. To say I no longer struggle with depression and impulse control, would be a lie...but I'm learning to love myself, warts and all. I hope to travel further into 'other-worlds' and continue to grow from my experiences - as well as the experiences of those around me.
Sorry for the long post, but I wanted to be thorough.
Please do not hesitate to reach out to me to offer advice/constructive criticism.
I like people most days, so hey - let's be friends.
A little bit about myself, in case you're interested:
Let's start at the shallow end...
I am from the upper midwest of the USA, and live with my SO and our four fur children.
I consider myself charmingly profane.
I like (most) music...except polka.
I prefer movies over television - the stranger/grittier the film, the better.
Now, let's get a little deeper...
I began experimenting with various substances around the age of twelve for (mostly) the wrong reasons. (NOTE: I don't recommend this.) I wanted to run...I wanted to rebel...I wanted to belong somewhere...I wanted to know what all the fuss was about. I spent most of my teenage years in a blur of self-hatred and poor decisions. I accepted, ingested, and participated in many things I did not have the wherewithal to cope with, or even begin to understand...and I didn't care. My attitude was generally, "will it fuck me up? okay!" and down the hatch it went. I didn't necessarily want to die, but I didn't expect (or intend) to live very long, either. There were a lot of unknowns - and zero foresight.
This changed right around the time I graduated high school - I don't remember most of that summer, and lost many friends to overdoses...it shook my world up, and caused me to make even more irresponsible decisions (if that's even possible). When the smoke cleared (pun very much intended) I was in a pile of emotional/spiritual wreckage, and had no idea where or who I was. I took a hiatus from EVERYTHING and focused on myself for a while, before wading back into the world of mind-alteration several years later. This time, I am taking the necessary steps to educate myself. It has truly changed my life for the better.
As for right now...
I fully intend to LIVE. To say I no longer struggle with depression and impulse control, would be a lie...but I'm learning to love myself, warts and all. I hope to travel further into 'other-worlds' and continue to grow from my experiences - as well as the experiences of those around me.
Sorry for the long post, but I wanted to be thorough.
Please do not hesitate to reach out to me to offer advice/constructive criticism.
I like people most days, so hey - let's be friends.
