Alexander1956
Greenlighter
Hi everyone, my name's Alex and I'm a 60 year old heavy smoker (nicotine) and ex heroin addict.
Here's some background info about me: I've pretty much tried all sort of drugs, started smoking when I was 12, drinking at 15 and I was an avid cocaine user during the 1970s. I also did poppers, LSD, MDMA and occasionally weed. But what really fucked me up was heroin, my life literally became a living hell because of that shit. At first I thought I'd be able to control it, like with coke (which I only used on weekends at parties and such), and I did have it under control up until I started IV'ing, that's when everything went downhill. I'm not gonna go into many details but getting clean was a very painful process and that's just putting it mildly. I did heroin from 1981 to 1991 and I haven't touched the stuff ever since, but I've thought about it every single day, even now more than 20 years later I still get the cravings and I live in the constant fear of relapsing. Smoking helps a lot but in the end it's just another problem, either I relapse and probably die of an OD or my lungs will eventually collapse after almost 50 years of smoking. I was diagnosed with COPD one year ago, I've tried to quit smoking countless times but the psychological dependence is just so strong I don't think I'll be able to do it, and to be honest I'm not sure I even want to. Anyway I'm still in the fight and I won't give up easily.
I look forward to sharing more experiences with all of you.
PS: I'm new here so let me know if I break any of the rules.
Here's some background info about me: I've pretty much tried all sort of drugs, started smoking when I was 12, drinking at 15 and I was an avid cocaine user during the 1970s. I also did poppers, LSD, MDMA and occasionally weed. But what really fucked me up was heroin, my life literally became a living hell because of that shit. At first I thought I'd be able to control it, like with coke (which I only used on weekends at parties and such), and I did have it under control up until I started IV'ing, that's when everything went downhill. I'm not gonna go into many details but getting clean was a very painful process and that's just putting it mildly. I did heroin from 1981 to 1991 and I haven't touched the stuff ever since, but I've thought about it every single day, even now more than 20 years later I still get the cravings and I live in the constant fear of relapsing. Smoking helps a lot but in the end it's just another problem, either I relapse and probably die of an OD or my lungs will eventually collapse after almost 50 years of smoking. I was diagnosed with COPD one year ago, I've tried to quit smoking countless times but the psychological dependence is just so strong I don't think I'll be able to do it, and to be honest I'm not sure I even want to. Anyway I'm still in the fight and I won't give up easily.
I look forward to sharing more experiences with all of you.
PS: I'm new here so let me know if I break any of the rules.
