flowerchyld
Greenlighter
Hey guys! I've been reading the forums on bluelight for a while, and i recently decided to join...
one main reason that i signed up for an account is because i have gone through hell the past 3 years with opiate addiction and opiate detox. I have made myself a guinea pig because I feel like sometimes, cold turkey is not the best way out....here is why i think that....
Cold turkey is almost intolerable when you are taking a ridiculous amount of pharmaceutical opiates or bundles upon bundles of heroin.
Let me tell you a little bit about my history with this addiction.
It started off very slowly, with vics and percs. i would not take more than 2-4 a day, 3 days a week...whenever i had the extra money. I loved the feeling of peace they gave me....and also the feeling that i could accomplish all my tasks and chores with an actual smile on my face. It was bliss....but not for long.
Soon I began needing percs more and more often (my bf and i were taking them together). I did not know about withdrawal at the time...and honestly it was not so bad at first. mental anguish, anxiety...sure...but no hot sweats or goosebumps yet. general lethargy...things of that sort.
Soon we moved onto blues because they were cheaper. and for some dumb reason we began insuflating (SP?) the blues instead of taking them orally. dumb decision. we went from one blue each a day to needing 2 each and it just kept building. I spent my scholarship and loan money on this (I was attending a Catholic college in the Brooklyn area), and soon i was out of funds. withdrawals finally hit hard. our friend offered us opana, (when they werent tampered with by the DEA, and were still crushable)...that was utter bliss for me. i spent over a year in an opana induces coma...(not literally...just drugged up and dead to the world)..
the withdrawals became intolerable. Every morning I awoke early sweating and cold and unable to go back to sleep until i took a line of the opana. Mind you, we still had very few knowledge about wd...we have never heard of it before. We figured it would be mostly mental....LITTLE DID WE KNOW IT WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT!
Soon I began stealing money and jewelry to feed my addiction. I could not hold a job and was forced to withdraw from school....a decision that i beat myself up over every single day. I would give anything to go back to my university...they were so kind and i had a $10,000 scholarship because of my sat scores and high school accomplishments.
I did not come from an abusive family...my father has 2 phd's, one in physics and one in geophysics. my mother was a pharmacist in uzbekistan and was a history professor while pregnant with me. my father went through alcohol addiction and is finally recovered..i did not come from a stupid or ignorant family.
Eventually I "graduated" to heroin...not shooting, but snorting...altho both are the devil, regardless of ROA.
After trying to detox numerous times without success, reading up everything i possibly could on withdrawal, i became a guinea pig because I was so desperate. I tried absolutely everything from the Thomas Recipe to natural supplements to nyquil to benzos and so on and so forth. I have finally been able to detox and i would like to get this detox method out to help those who need it, because i have had to go through the depths of the internet and friends and science journals to only be disappointed.
I am here to hopefully help those going thru wd's, both acute and severe. I will be compiling info and hopefully post it soon....
I am also interested in learning more about psychedelic experiences and what the divine has to offer for me...
SO HELLO FELLOW BLUELIGHTERS!!!!
one main reason that i signed up for an account is because i have gone through hell the past 3 years with opiate addiction and opiate detox. I have made myself a guinea pig because I feel like sometimes, cold turkey is not the best way out....here is why i think that....
Cold turkey is almost intolerable when you are taking a ridiculous amount of pharmaceutical opiates or bundles upon bundles of heroin.
Let me tell you a little bit about my history with this addiction.
It started off very slowly, with vics and percs. i would not take more than 2-4 a day, 3 days a week...whenever i had the extra money. I loved the feeling of peace they gave me....and also the feeling that i could accomplish all my tasks and chores with an actual smile on my face. It was bliss....but not for long.
Soon I began needing percs more and more often (my bf and i were taking them together). I did not know about withdrawal at the time...and honestly it was not so bad at first. mental anguish, anxiety...sure...but no hot sweats or goosebumps yet. general lethargy...things of that sort.
Soon we moved onto blues because they were cheaper. and for some dumb reason we began insuflating (SP?) the blues instead of taking them orally. dumb decision. we went from one blue each a day to needing 2 each and it just kept building. I spent my scholarship and loan money on this (I was attending a Catholic college in the Brooklyn area), and soon i was out of funds. withdrawals finally hit hard. our friend offered us opana, (when they werent tampered with by the DEA, and were still crushable)...that was utter bliss for me. i spent over a year in an opana induces coma...(not literally...just drugged up and dead to the world)..
the withdrawals became intolerable. Every morning I awoke early sweating and cold and unable to go back to sleep until i took a line of the opana. Mind you, we still had very few knowledge about wd...we have never heard of it before. We figured it would be mostly mental....LITTLE DID WE KNOW IT WAS SO MUCH MORE THAN THAT!
Soon I began stealing money and jewelry to feed my addiction. I could not hold a job and was forced to withdraw from school....a decision that i beat myself up over every single day. I would give anything to go back to my university...they were so kind and i had a $10,000 scholarship because of my sat scores and high school accomplishments.
I did not come from an abusive family...my father has 2 phd's, one in physics and one in geophysics. my mother was a pharmacist in uzbekistan and was a history professor while pregnant with me. my father went through alcohol addiction and is finally recovered..i did not come from a stupid or ignorant family.
Eventually I "graduated" to heroin...not shooting, but snorting...altho both are the devil, regardless of ROA.
After trying to detox numerous times without success, reading up everything i possibly could on withdrawal, i became a guinea pig because I was so desperate. I tried absolutely everything from the Thomas Recipe to natural supplements to nyquil to benzos and so on and so forth. I have finally been able to detox and i would like to get this detox method out to help those who need it, because i have had to go through the depths of the internet and friends and science journals to only be disappointed.
I am here to hopefully help those going thru wd's, both acute and severe. I will be compiling info and hopefully post it soon....
I am also interested in learning more about psychedelic experiences and what the divine has to offer for me...
SO HELLO FELLOW BLUELIGHTERS!!!!
