andghosts
Bluelighter
I was very briefly part of Bluelight a few years ago before being admitted to the Psychology and Chemistry program at a university in Toronto, Ontario in Canada which was the primary reason for my move from my birthplace and home of fifteen years in London, England and, have chosen to return with a new account and a new attitude having lived a little longer and learned a little better. I've been told I'm rather verbose and rarely have little to say so, I reckon that's good news for the Bluelight community, unless of course you're like me and often as a result, routinely neglect your studies, skipping out on your chemistry labs because although you're big on chemistry, your idea of a fun experiment includes a little less equipment and a little more experience.
Since you're probably wondering (or not), I'm 21, female and my D.O.C is heroin, with ketamine and any member of the amphetamine class coming in at a close second, and third. I say drug of choice, but that's a bit misleading, my relationship with heroin began five years ago and would probably best be described as complicated. I like to think of our union as something akin to stockholm syndrome in that it began with infatuation and in an undeniably short period of time developed into an all-encompassing affaire de coeur that made my other intrigue's shallow in comparison, and although I spent half my time getting knocked to ground, I always found myself spending the other half standing right back up, turning the other cheek and asking to be hit again, or rather asking for another hit time and time again. Heroin became all I knew and all I wanted to know because I knew it better than I knew myself and i knew that without heroin I wouldn't know myself, I wouldn't be myself. I may be young in age, but I know drugs. It's what I do, it's my whole life. It's what I study at school, it's what I experiment with at home and it's what I research at work. It's all a little ironic, a little contradictory and perhaps a little tragic but, that's just me.
Anyhow, I'm looking forward to re-integrating myself within the Bluelight community and meeting other like-minded individuals and I, of course appreciate anybody who took the time to read and/or will take the time to read any of my posts
Since you're probably wondering (or not), I'm 21, female and my D.O.C is heroin, with ketamine and any member of the amphetamine class coming in at a close second, and third. I say drug of choice, but that's a bit misleading, my relationship with heroin began five years ago and would probably best be described as complicated. I like to think of our union as something akin to stockholm syndrome in that it began with infatuation and in an undeniably short period of time developed into an all-encompassing affaire de coeur that made my other intrigue's shallow in comparison, and although I spent half my time getting knocked to ground, I always found myself spending the other half standing right back up, turning the other cheek and asking to be hit again, or rather asking for another hit time and time again. Heroin became all I knew and all I wanted to know because I knew it better than I knew myself and i knew that without heroin I wouldn't know myself, I wouldn't be myself. I may be young in age, but I know drugs. It's what I do, it's my whole life. It's what I study at school, it's what I experiment with at home and it's what I research at work. It's all a little ironic, a little contradictory and perhaps a little tragic but, that's just me.
Anyhow, I'm looking forward to re-integrating myself within the Bluelight community and meeting other like-minded individuals and I, of course appreciate anybody who took the time to read and/or will take the time to read any of my posts
