A big howdy ho fellow Bluelight members!!! I am happy to be a member finally.
I have been on opiates for a severe cervical injury for the last 12 years!! Then I was rear-ended bigtime in 2007, and 54 weeks after that my late husband threw me across a room using my mouth. I left him directly after that. A year after that I was manipulated by my very greedy parents, controlling parents, (I love them, still....I can't talk with them or let them in my life now,but I still love them) to move to their neck of the woods. I desperately needed help, and they promised to help. I was conned. It hurts my heart everyday, and I feel, I *am* very much alone and on my own. It was a bigger mistake than I had anticipated.
They not only didnt help me, but they had the medical community primed to perceive and receive me with a very inaccurate perception; lies.
I need a 3-level fusion/corpectomy, or disc implants. I very much want the disc implant because there is degeneration seem at all levels. The spinal cord is being compressed at C4-5 and C5-6. Its flattened and being forced against the lamina at C4-5 with severe narrowing or the root canal at C5, and C6. The pain is horrible. If I get emotional the blood; the pressure is so significant going to my head.
The surgeons will not help me here because after the 5 years here my tolerance has gone up and I take 2 100mg morphine pills, and four 15 mg oxycodone a day. They say that is too risky for anesthesia.
I do not want to take methadone. But, it looks like I will be starting this next visit to rotate me to a lower dosage of opiates.
I need my good name back. I'm willing to fight tooth and nail for it when I am not so weak.
Ive tried so hard to find a surgeon. I have been "flagged", and I believe blacklisted. The medical entity that controls this region forced me to see and establish care with my father's primary doc. She was pushing buttons. It was obvious, and I'm not that easily offended. When she called me a liar when I told her of a traumatizing life altering event (and subsequent catastrophic loss) in my life years ago, and was suffering night terrors while adjusting to my parents environment, I did what my doc in the south told me to do: walk out and report them. "They know better than to call a woman a liar." Another super big mistake. Huge mistake.
She wrote a lie on the only part of my records they will give me (records from that appt) giving a completely and damning reason why I walked out.
I just never thought the medical community did these things, but they do. I've read so many stories if poor, poor people whom 5 years ago I would think are nuts. This is very real.
Wow, just wow.
I assure everyone I am not a bad person, and I have a hell of a lot of integrity, generosity, kindness, and selflessness.
Sorry for such a long into.
Very.
Thanks for reading it all!! Smiles!
I have been on opiates for a severe cervical injury for the last 12 years!! Then I was rear-ended bigtime in 2007, and 54 weeks after that my late husband threw me across a room using my mouth. I left him directly after that. A year after that I was manipulated by my very greedy parents, controlling parents, (I love them, still....I can't talk with them or let them in my life now,but I still love them) to move to their neck of the woods. I desperately needed help, and they promised to help. I was conned. It hurts my heart everyday, and I feel, I *am* very much alone and on my own. It was a bigger mistake than I had anticipated.
They not only didnt help me, but they had the medical community primed to perceive and receive me with a very inaccurate perception; lies.
I need a 3-level fusion/corpectomy, or disc implants. I very much want the disc implant because there is degeneration seem at all levels. The spinal cord is being compressed at C4-5 and C5-6. Its flattened and being forced against the lamina at C4-5 with severe narrowing or the root canal at C5, and C6. The pain is horrible. If I get emotional the blood; the pressure is so significant going to my head.
The surgeons will not help me here because after the 5 years here my tolerance has gone up and I take 2 100mg morphine pills, and four 15 mg oxycodone a day. They say that is too risky for anesthesia.
I do not want to take methadone. But, it looks like I will be starting this next visit to rotate me to a lower dosage of opiates.
I need my good name back. I'm willing to fight tooth and nail for it when I am not so weak.
Ive tried so hard to find a surgeon. I have been "flagged", and I believe blacklisted. The medical entity that controls this region forced me to see and establish care with my father's primary doc. She was pushing buttons. It was obvious, and I'm not that easily offended. When she called me a liar when I told her of a traumatizing life altering event (and subsequent catastrophic loss) in my life years ago, and was suffering night terrors while adjusting to my parents environment, I did what my doc in the south told me to do: walk out and report them. "They know better than to call a woman a liar." Another super big mistake. Huge mistake.
She wrote a lie on the only part of my records they will give me (records from that appt) giving a completely and damning reason why I walked out.
I just never thought the medical community did these things, but they do. I've read so many stories if poor, poor people whom 5 years ago I would think are nuts. This is very real.
Wow, just wow.
I assure everyone I am not a bad person, and I have a hell of a lot of integrity, generosity, kindness, and selflessness.
Sorry for such a long into.
Very.
Thanks for reading it all!! Smiles!
